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Saturday, March 12, 2005

The best I ever had

So, u sailed away,
into a great sky morning,
Now, i'm here to stay,
Love can be boring

Nothing's quite de same now,
I just say ur name,
But it's not so bad,
You're de only best i ever had
You don't want me back,
You're just de best tat i ever had

So you stole ma world,
and now,
I'm just a phoney,
Remembering de boy,
Leaves me down and lonely

Sending it in a letter
Make him sound feel better

It's not so bad,
You're de only de best i ever had

It may take sometimes,
to passed me up inside,
And i can't take it
So i run away and hide,
Tat may time tat u were always mine,
You were always right

It's not so bad,
You're de best tat i ever had...

title;i miss u....

Craving to see your smile again
makes me wish
to turn back the time
from which I can get
a glance at you
and thinking that someday
you'll really be mine.

How will I ever forget you,
the girl who opened
my heart to love,
who makes me inspired each day
and who gave me
the hope and strength
not to be afraid to fall for someone.
And without you knowing,
it was you from the beginning.

Over the past years,
I set my heart to others,
still it can't be open,
it can't be broken.
I thought that the blame was on me
but what can I do?
Not even one got the right key.

Learning to go on
without you in my mind,
is really hard to keep on trying.
For the truth is, in my entire life,
I found out, it's in you my world
keeps on turning.

At the right time,
whenever I get the chance
to express what I feel,
I'll let you read this poem
to let you know
how much I like you
and for every moment
I set my thoughts on you,
I never, ever stopped dreaming
and praying that one day
you'll tell me, you like me too

i want is just ur cute little
smile that always brighten up my day......if happen
a day when im ready and i really want you
back....then u'll see the differ side of
me...well,thats the time where only u matters the
most!!!!

The day i receive the kiss from the gerl I love and i
thought was in heaven.I think of it every day and it
will be in my mind forever.I felt butterflies in my
stomach and goosebumps all over. I wish i was
with forever and kiss until the end.

Never in my life did I think I would find you, It's like
every dream, every wish I ever had is coming true!
You have showen me I could be happy again, you
have showen me a lover can be a best friend.
You have giving me so much, Happiness,Love,a
friend, the list just never will end!
Thank you for letting me be who I want to be,
Thank you for loving me for me!
I love you, you are my dream come true!!!!

Hope u kept the diary in gd condition.
Thanks.
Maybe this is fer our own good.
Wish me all the best.
I wish u all the best too.
Forgive me everything what I did.
Thanks for making me happy always.

Today, how's ma day??..Walkin alone at Suntec, gosh, jam like hell an the mall as well on the road...Guess tat's all...Frends foreva...

She prefers to keep problems and
conflicts to herself more and in e end she cries
alot..so,since e day i met her..i want to make a
change in her life..hopefully she can be a better
person..i want her to be strong and be more open
to tok to me abt anything..

I hope i do made your day in the past.
Thank you.
Take care.

P/s: I will always be wit ya....Tat's a promise~

stop hurting me
10:41 PM

title;i miss u....

Craving to see your smile again
makes me wish
to turn back the time
from which I can get
a glance at you
and thinking that someday
you'll really be mine.

How will I ever forget you,
the girl who opened
my heart to love,
who makes me inspired each day
and who gave me
the hope and strength
not to be afraid to fall for someone.
And without you knowing,
it was you from the beginning.

Over the past years,
I set my heart to others,
still it can't be open,
it can't be broken.
I thought that the blame was on me
but what can I do?
Not even one got the right key.

Learning to go on
without you in my mind,
is really hard to keep on trying.
For the truth is, in my entire life,
I found out, it's in you my world
keeps on turning.

At the right time,
whenever I get the chance
to express what I feel,
I'll let you read this poem
to let you know
how much I like you
and for every moment
I set my thoughts on you,
I never, ever stopped dreaming
and praying that one day
you'll tell me, you like me too

So, u sailed away,
into a great sky morning,
Now, i'm here to stay,
> Love can be boring
>
> Nothing's quite de same now,
> I just say ur name,
>
> But it's not so bad,
> You're de only best i ever had
> You don't want me back,
> You're just de best tat i ever had
>
> So you stole ma world,
> and now,
> I'm just a phoney,
> Remembering de boy,
> Leaves me down and lonely
>
> Sending it in a letter
> Make him sound feel better
>
> It's not so bad,
> You're de only de best i ever had
>
> It may take sometimes,
> to passed me up inside,
> And i can't take it
> So i run away and hide,
> Tat may time tat u were always mine,
> You were always right
>
> It's not so bad,
> You're de best tat i ever had...

stop hurting me
10:41 PM

Thursday, March 10, 2005

This is all facts bout gerls~

When a GIRL is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of
questions,
She is wondering how long you will be
around.

When a GIRL answers "i'm fine" after a few
seconds,
She is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday,
She wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL sms's u everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once.

When a GIRL says I love you,
She means it.

When a GIRL says that she can't live without
you,
She has made up her mind that you are her
future.

When a GIRL says "i miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more than
that

stop hurting me
12:12 PM

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

This is only the beginnin, hev to be strong..if i cn do tat, why cnt he??...Just think in tat way...Hev to be patient, I dun have the right to even tell you that ma heart is in pain...If he cn take ma stupid nonsence, why cant i??...

P/s: I juz cnt believe it...

stop hurting me
5:21 PM

Monday, March 07, 2005

Some things are left unsaid..I can only let out here, this is the only diary that i had..and i'm lettin out today..

Only today, i realised how much u had bad impression on me afta chatting on MSN...Thou, i'm ok wit it, deep in ma heart, i just cant believe it, u are always the mose trusted person in ma life, the one that i love so much in ma life, the most understanding person in ma life, and now, everything seems to be different...It's just so sad, when the one that lived wit ya fer 19 years, and she cant be trusted...I dont know why u kept telling this to her...Did i ever tell her bout your bad points..lemme tell you in case you forgot, NEVER~...Tat's ma vow, bt you??...i don't know how cum u can say it to her...Asked maself, if ma closed ones had a bad impression on me, then how bout ma fwens, ma outsiders??...tat's where i told maself, Fuck them ar!!...I jus feel hurt..

Nowadays, i just felt the stress, felt the headache, and panadol is ma best friend...Whether be in sch, be at home, or anywhere, ppl seem to disagree wit me...yeah, maybe i'm worng, bt if people cnt trust me, how am i gonna click well the ppl, bt then, i have to take the consequences, sometimes i felt tired, so so tired..

stop hurting me
11:39 PM

These few days, i felt stressed, never thought it would be like this...

To jazs,i came to you as a friend, and the one i wanna share ma probs wit, but, it just cropped up, and now never, never will i talk to you, cuz u thought i lied to you, but yeah i lied to you..Gosh,wad i'm saying??!!But how u expect me to tell you some of ma probs and ma situation now afta contactin you only fer few days...i don't wanna scare u off, bt i gave you hint, tat i can only be a friend to you....Gosh, i don't know wad i'm crappin about!!, it's like, it happened, so wadever~

Aniway, i dont wanna think all of these,but wad i know, i have the right to decide ma time, who i wanna be wit, wad i wanna do..that's ma right!...Aniway, bullshit~

So now i left with 2 projects more,my IA and my Techent..And, just now, ma ICA evaluation, Alhamdulillah, thanks God, i think, i'm gonna do well in tat..It's like, "Cum on, cum on, ask me questions!!I did this program and i knew the reason every single codes that i put in ma program"...Yeah, felt satisfied, after i've repeated this module..And, now i understand much much betta, eh Shifa eh...hahaha, yeah we did!!*swaying our body*...

Yesterday, me and ma family ate at Hajah Maimunah in the morning, near Geylang, then ma dad drove me to TP, yupt, and they saw me climbing the central gate...haha, yeah and they laughed when ma butt fell to the ground...*grins* then off to Farhan's lab...Me, Farhan, Din and Shifa were there too..The lab is cool~...Can listen to radio,it's like a private room...Nice~...Yeah, i did ma ICA project, they did their IFCTech project...We did till 945pm, then we went home...Gosh~, no one in sch, and the corridors was like damn silent, scared man!~, and u were there acting like a ghost,me and Farhan were quite horrified bt, we actin cool~...haha,11pm, reached home..Tired~

Credits go to Farhan, Din and Shifa

Farhan = Tangs fer sharing your lab to me, tangs fer helping me and tangs fer your funny jokes,haha.

Din = Tangs fer helpin me, tangs fer your laughter, made me laughed too.

Shifa = Tangs fer being there fer me when i'm in need, esp. in studies, tangs fer the treat(KFC meal and crackers), we enjoyed the food.

well~, 2 more to go..Cum on fiza!~*cheers*~

stop hurting me
10:52 AM

Thursday, March 03, 2005

Let me clear to you guys.

Infocomm Tech--3/4 Done
Wireless Tech--Done
Technopreneurship--1/2 Done
ICA--1/2 Done
Internet App--Not Done

Shit,betta doing fast.
I've no time.

Today how's ma life?
I dont know.
Can't feel.
I have to be independent.
And learn to be independent.
Coz, i wanna do things on my own.
Everything on my own.
It's not i wanna to.
I have to.
Maybe i've learned from you.
To stand up on my own
is what i have to learn.
And now i'm trying.
Thanks.

stop hurting me
12:27 AM

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

I wanna wrote lotsa things, but, seems to be gone.
My mind's gone.
Black spots always played in ma mind.
Yesterday was a hell day fer me.
I feel like i wanna be put in coma.
But sadly,it didn't happen.
I can't smile anymore
cuz, i don't know how to be happy.
I can only put on my blur and frown face.
I'm sorry if that made you guys feel i'm changed.

Everything seems to be wrong.
I tried ma best not let you to meet each otha
Cuz,i noe that will lead to bad,bad ending.
But, u still provoke it
and thought i'm siding.
All i can do is shut ma mouth,
hoping the situation will get betta
thou,the words and actions are hard to accept,
i still silent maself,
hoping you feel much betta.

Why must this happen?
Thou, i knew it's ma fault
So i'm ok with wad pple gonna say behind ma back
I dont give a fuck to them whoever wanna think of me
U all don't know wad's in ma life, happening in ma life
And again, i'm wrong cuz i dont even wanna share
how's ma life going on.

-I'm sick

Aniway, that's it, i wanna say thanks to ma kak Shifa,you are the best...I love u Kak...I love ya~...Tanks fer undastanding...Well,gonna meet ma bartley gerlfwens soon, 9 March, hope i wont forget tat day...Truly, i'm gonna meet Alice..Kalo die takde, memang nk kene kau..Haha, just hope she's der, long time never see sia tat gal, and of cuz, i'm gonna meet ma 2 bestfwens in ma life, Yaty and Lyd...Love you guys...

P/s: Yest, is a gd and bd day fer me, plz brighten up ma days, thank you.

stop hurting me
10:37 AM

Friday, February 18, 2005

I'm trying..tangs fer everything..~
Be strong, ppl...~

stop hurting me
9:27 AM