A gerl who always facing dilemma

2005-03-12T22:41:00.001+08:00

The best I ever had

So, u sailed away,
into a great sky morning,
Now, i'm here to stay,
Love can be boring

Nothing's quite de same now,
I just say ur name,
But it's not so bad,
You're de only best i ever had
You don't want me back,
You're just de best tat i ever had

So you stole ma world,
and now,
I'm just a phoney,
Remembering de boy,
Leaves me down and lonely

Sending it in a letter
Make him sound feel better

It's not so bad,
You're de only de best i ever had

It may take sometimes,
to passed me up inside,
And i can't take it
So i run away and hide,
Tat may time tat u were always mine,
You were always right

It's not so bad,
You're de best tat i ever had...

title;i miss u....

Craving to see your smile again
makes me wish
to turn back the time
from which I can get
a glance at you
and thinking that someday
you'll really be mine.

How will I ever forget you,
the girl who opened
my heart to love,
who makes me inspired each day
and who gave me
the hope and strength
not to be afraid to fall for someone.
And without you knowing,
it was you from the beginning.

Over the past years,
I set my heart to others,
still it can't be open,
it can't be broken.
I thought that the blame was on me
but what can I do?
Not even one got the right key.

Learning to go on
without you in my mind,
is really hard to keep on trying.
For the truth is, in my entire life,
I found out, it's in you my world
keeps on turning.

At the right time,
whenever I get the chance
to express what I feel,
I'll let you read this poem
to let you know
how much I like you
and for every moment
I set my thoughts on you,
I never, ever stopped dreaming
and praying that one day
you'll tell me, you like me too

i want is just ur cute little
smile that always brighten up my day......if happen
a day when im ready and i really want you
back....then u'll see the differ side of
me...well,thats the time where only u matters the
most!!!!

The day i receive the kiss from the gerl I love and i
thought was in heaven.I think of it every day and it
will be in my mind forever.I felt butterflies in my
stomach and goosebumps all over. I wish i was
with forever and kiss until the end.

Never in my life did I think I would find you, It's like
every dream, every wish I ever had is coming true!
You have showen me I could be happy again, you
have showen me a lover can be a best friend.
You have giving me so much, Happiness,Love,a
friend, the list just never will end!
Thank you for letting me be who I want to be,
Thank you for loving me for me!
I love you, you are my dream come true!!!!

Hope u kept the diary in gd condition.
Thanks.
Maybe this is fer our own good.
Wish me all the best.
I wish u all the best too.
Forgive me everything what I did.
Thanks for making me happy always.

Today, how's ma day??..Walkin alone at Suntec, gosh, jam like hell an the mall as well on the road...Guess tat's all...Frends foreva...

She prefers to keep problems and
conflicts to herself more and in e end she cries
alot..so,since e day i met her..i want to make a
change in her life..hopefully she can be a better
person..i want her to be strong and be more open
to tok to me abt anything..

I hope i do made your day in the past.
Thank you.
Take care.

P/s: I will always be wit ya....Tat's a promise~

2005-03-12T22:41:00.000+08:00

title;i miss u....

Craving to see your smile again
makes me wish
to turn back the time
from which I can get
a glance at you
and thinking that someday
you'll really be mine.

How will I ever forget you,
the girl who opened
my heart to love,
who makes me inspired each day
and who gave me
the hope and strength
not to be afraid to fall for someone.
And without you knowing,
it was you from the beginning.

Over the past years,
I set my heart to others,
still it can't be open,
it can't be broken.
I thought that the blame was on me
but what can I do?
Not even one got the right key.

Learning to go on
without you in my mind,
is really hard to keep on trying.
For the truth is, in my entire life,
I found out, it's in you my world
keeps on turning.

At the right time,
whenever I get the chance
to express what I feel,
I'll let you read this poem
to let you know
how much I like you
and for every moment
I set my thoughts on you,
I never, ever stopped dreaming
and praying that one day
you'll tell me, you like me too

So, u sailed away,
into a great sky morning,
Now, i'm here to stay,
> Love can be boring
>
> Nothing's quite de same now,
> I just say ur name,
>
> But it's not so bad,
> You're de only best i ever had
> You don't want me back,
> You're just de best tat i ever had
>
> So you stole ma world,
> and now,
> I'm just a phoney,
> Remembering de boy,
> Leaves me down and lonely
>
> Sending it in a letter
> Make him sound feel better
>
> It's not so bad,
> You're de only de best i ever had
>
> It may take sometimes,
> to passed me up inside,
> And i can't take it
> So i run away and hide,
> Tat may time tat u were always mine,
> You were always right
>
> It's not so bad,
> You're de best tat i ever had...

2005-03-10T12:12:00.000+08:00

This is all facts bout gerls~

When a GIRL is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of
questions,
She is wondering how long you will be
around.

When a GIRL answers "i'm fine" after a few
seconds,
She is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday,
She wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL sms's u everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once.

When a GIRL says I love you,
She means it.

When a GIRL says that she can't live without
you,
She has made up her mind that you are her
future.

When a GIRL says "i miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more than
that

2005-03-08T17:21:00.000+08:00

This is only the beginnin, hev to be strong..if i cn do tat, why cnt he??...Just think in tat way...Hev to be patient, I dun have the right to even tell you that ma heart is in pain...If he cn take ma stupid nonsence, why cant i??...

P/s: I juz cnt believe it...

2005-03-07T23:39:00.000+08:00

Some things are left unsaid..I can only let out here, this is the only diary that i had..and i'm lettin out today..

Only today, i realised how much u had bad impression on me afta chatting on MSN...Thou, i'm ok wit it, deep in ma heart, i just cant believe it, u are always the mose trusted person in ma life, the one that i love so much in ma life, the most understanding person in ma life, and now, everything seems to be different...It's just so sad, when the one that lived wit ya fer 19 years, and she cant be trusted...I dont know why u kept telling this to her...Did i ever tell her bout your bad points..lemme tell you in case you forgot, NEVER~...Tat's ma vow, bt you??...i don't know how cum u can say it to her...Asked maself, if ma closed ones had a bad impression on me, then how bout ma fwens, ma outsiders??...tat's where i told maself, Fuck them ar!!...I jus feel hurt..

Nowadays, i just felt the stress, felt the headache, and panadol is ma best friend...Whether be in sch, be at home, or anywhere, ppl seem to disagree wit me...yeah, maybe i'm worng, bt if people cnt trust me, how am i gonna click well the ppl, bt then, i have to take the consequences, sometimes i felt tired, so so tired..

2005-03-07T10:52:00.000+08:00

These few days, i felt stressed, never thought it would be like this...

To jazs,i came to you as a friend, and the one i wanna share ma probs wit, but, it just cropped up, and now never, never will i talk to you, cuz u thought i lied to you, but yeah i lied to you..Gosh,wad i'm saying??!!But how u expect me to tell you some of ma probs and ma situation now afta contactin you only fer few days...i don't wanna scare u off, bt i gave you hint, tat i can only be a friend to you....Gosh, i don't know wad i'm crappin about!!, it's like, it happened, so wadever~

Aniway, i dont wanna think all of these,but wad i know, i have the right to decide ma time, who i wanna be wit, wad i wanna do..that's ma right!...Aniway, bullshit~

So now i left with 2 projects more,my IA and my Techent..And, just now, ma ICA evaluation, Alhamdulillah, thanks God, i think, i'm gonna do well in tat..It's like, "Cum on, cum on, ask me questions!!I did this program and i knew the reason every single codes that i put in ma program"...Yeah, felt satisfied, after i've repeated this module..And, now i understand much much betta, eh Shifa eh...hahaha, yeah we did!!*swaying our body*...

Yesterday, me and ma family ate at Hajah Maimunah in the morning, near Geylang, then ma dad drove me to TP, yupt, and they saw me climbing the central gate...haha, yeah and they laughed when ma butt fell to the ground...*grins* then off to Farhan's lab...Me, Farhan, Din and Shifa were there too..The lab is cool~...Can listen to radio,it's like a private room...Nice~...Yeah, i did ma ICA project, they did their IFCTech project...We did till 945pm, then we went home...Gosh~, no one in sch, and the corridors was like damn silent, scared man!~, and u were there acting like a ghost,me and Farhan were quite horrified bt, we actin cool~...haha,11pm, reached home..Tired~

Credits go to Farhan, Din and Shifa

Farhan = Tangs fer sharing your lab to me, tangs fer helping me and tangs fer your funny jokes,haha.

Din = Tangs fer helpin me, tangs fer your laughter, made me laughed too.

Shifa = Tangs fer being there fer me when i'm in need, esp. in studies, tangs fer the treat(KFC meal and crackers), we enjoyed the food.

well~, 2 more to go..Cum on fiza!~*cheers*~

2005-03-03T00:27:00.000+08:00

Let me clear to you guys.

Infocomm Tech--3/4 Done
Wireless Tech--Done
Technopreneurship--1/2 Done
ICA--1/2 Done
Internet App--Not Done

Shit,betta doing fast.
I've no time.

Today how's ma life?
I dont know.
Can't feel.
I have to be independent.
And learn to be independent.
Coz, i wanna do things on my own.
Everything on my own.
It's not i wanna to.
I have to.
Maybe i've learned from you.
To stand up on my own
is what i have to learn.
And now i'm trying.
Thanks.

2005-03-02T10:37:00.000+08:00

I wanna wrote lotsa things, but, seems to be gone.
My mind's gone.
Black spots always played in ma mind.
Yesterday was a hell day fer me.
I feel like i wanna be put in coma.
But sadly,it didn't happen.
I can't smile anymore
cuz, i don't know how to be happy.
I can only put on my blur and frown face.
I'm sorry if that made you guys feel i'm changed.

Everything seems to be wrong.
I tried ma best not let you to meet each otha
Cuz,i noe that will lead to bad,bad ending.
But, u still provoke it
and thought i'm siding.
All i can do is shut ma mouth,
hoping the situation will get betta
thou,the words and actions are hard to accept,
i still silent maself,
hoping you feel much betta.

Why must this happen?
Thou, i knew it's ma fault
So i'm ok with wad pple gonna say behind ma back
I dont give a fuck to them whoever wanna think of me
U all don't know wad's in ma life, happening in ma life
And again, i'm wrong cuz i dont even wanna share
how's ma life going on.

-I'm sick

Aniway, that's it, i wanna say thanks to ma kak Shifa,you are the best...I love u Kak...I love ya~...Tanks fer undastanding...Well,gonna meet ma bartley gerlfwens soon, 9 March, hope i wont forget tat day...Truly, i'm gonna meet Alice..Kalo die takde, memang nk kene kau..Haha, just hope she's der, long time never see sia tat gal, and of cuz, i'm gonna meet ma 2 bestfwens in ma life, Yaty and Lyd...Love you guys...

P/s: Yest, is a gd and bd day fer me, plz brighten up ma days, thank you.

2005-02-18T09:27:00.000+08:00

I'm trying..tangs fer everything..~
Be strong, ppl...~

2005-02-13T17:52:00.000+08:00

Hey guys, wassup!~...Well, loads and loads of projects and assigments i had rite now, and i'm trying to keep track on them...Yeah, before i start ma project, decided to post fer someone~

Yesterday, 9.06pm, you were gone in this world, how sad i'm not by your side, told maself, me and ma twin sis are your fav grandchildren..Fer a year, you've been awarded in hospital, we don't even visit you, it's not that we don't want, we tried to, but our mom said we were not allowed...But, i knew you never took tat as a grudge against us, instead there you were, wit a strong heart, kept living alone,ignoring nurses' and doctors' advices...I've had had 3 grandfathers in ma life, and now left two, you were ma best grandad, you were the one who left first...You were once a tough, tall, strong, muscular guy that i've known,and always admire that...But how shocked i was, when i saw you today...Thou we were not related nor had family blood between us, we love you...And i wished tat you knew it too..

You used to throw us wit your own bare hands as if we were so small and sat on your shoulder, touching the ceiling when we were small...You used to call me "baik" and Nisa "pot-pot"...the care you gave us was so significant to us thou it lasted fer a while...when we grew up, we were not close..yeah but, you were always in ma heart, i really hope you knew tat...But surprisingly, you knew how to differentiate, never mistook us...Cool aint?..Today, i went to see you fer the last time, and saw you, i felt so sad, and afta you were bathed, it's the time fer anyone to kiss on his forehead fer the really last time..Yeah, and i'm the 1st grandchild tat kissed you, you looked all neat and your forehead was cold, Tat's when everyone cried...It's so sad to see someone you love is gone..Went to the perkuburan, afta the constructor threw the soil back to your place, the in-charge started to chant some prayers, and tat rily touched ma heart and brokedown...How i wish i didn't wanna let you go, but life has to move on, and i'm sure you wanna us to move on esp his dearly wife, ma grandma...Hope she's alright...

Yeah, alhamdulillah, ma pakcik and ma dad and some outsiders asked fer imam to do "tahlil"...Hope tat made you feel at ease at tat time..Rily appreciate everyone who came down...And alhamdulillah, everything turned out smoothly...Thanks God..Lastly, hope everyone who knew ma grandpa, Allahyarham Mohd Mansor Bin Abdullah, forgave wad had he done, let him rest in peace, wish you can go to Rahmatullah at ease, ma beloved grandpa, Amin.

Alright, yesterday afternoon, had picnic wit Nisa,Sham,Yan,Izad,Nad,Khaleef,Rifqi, Osman,Ahmad,Naseer, yeah tat's all i guess, hmm...Li, white and Salman were there too, they had their own outing...Well, a nice outing thou, we paired up and played soccer, i became the defender...haha, yeah i played like shit, i think the othas pissed wit me...hahha, nah, we played fer fun rite...hehe,then we go and bathed at the sea...Then we played truth and dare fer a while...Well, the main reason was we wana sabo Nad and Izad, yeah they were so sweet couple, gosh...hehe, yeah, some of them went home, left me and othas sat at one place...Tat was when i knew ma grandpa dead, so like no mood...Sorry guys...But, overall, fun outing...heaha....

P/S: Thanks fer everythin, i appreciate it...

2005-02-10T10:11:00.000+08:00

Gd mornin, well, inda morning, woke up at 6, bathe did some things which i shud do, then jog, gosh guess how many rounds i jog+slow jog+walk??...Countless...hehe, aniway, just can't slp at 6...So why not just me chill and jog and take some fresh air...Tat's cool~...niway, upload the song alweady...Ma old me...

Ataris-Summer of Boys

Hope u guys love this song, shud be a rock or alternative i guess thou maybe you guys think the song is old one, but i love it~...Hmm, tat's all..Enjoy~

2005-02-09T21:33:00.000+08:00

Lots of wishes i wanna make...

Wish tat you guys just go away, coz i never ever thought of knowing you guys more since we have not sit and chat fer a long time and won't coming back to you guys...Just hope you guys shoo away...

Learn ma lesson not to get to know otha guys animore, stick to one and tat's it...

Wish you all the best, and don't be desperate aite...

Wish that you will treasure me the way i treasure you...

Wish that, i could forget the past and face the future...

Wish that i won't think of you when i'm alone...it just made me feel ergh~, gosh...

Wish to be a better gal...

Wish everything is goin fine fer me..

Wish we are always happy...

Wish you don't hate me...

Wish fer your everythin tat makes u happy..

Wish fer a happy family...

I guess tat's all i can think fer now....Wish all the Muslims a Happy new Year tommorrow, it's first day of Muharram...Wish i'm always healthy...Same to you guys aite...Tat's all BAH~

P/s:aniway, i just upload new pictures, and hope u are ok wit it, cuz i would like
to put up your pics..Thank YOU!~

2005-02-08T16:24:00.000+08:00

Hi *yawnz*....Damn sleepy today...How's today?? Today's Chinese New Year eve, so wanna shout out loud to everyone who will be celebrating tommorrow, Shi Nien Kuai Le, i dunno how to spell la...haha, aniway afta sch, ate Western food at Breadboard wit ma fav hotdog~...I know it's not a big deal, but hey, i just learn to eat cheese and hotdog...so, it's really a big deal fer me!!...haha, okok *serious*, played pool afta that, ate again then went off to our home, well, my eyes can't take it, so tired...

Well, wanna post somethings that i only know which you guys can't figure it out...Just feel like writing stupid things..

1) Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so -Gareth Gates

(2) Yesterday you asked me something I thought you knew
So I told you with a smile, it's all about you
Then you whispered in my ear and told me too
That you made my life worthwhile, it's all about you -McFly

(3) I remember that day u left
I remember the last breath u took right in front of me
when u said that u would leave
I was too damn stuborn to try to stop u or say anything
but I see it clearly now
and this choice that I made keeps playin in my head
over and over again, playin in my head, over and over again -Nelly

(4) I need you always to be by ma side,
cuz i'm just lost right now,
I want you to be there when i need help,
when i need the care,
when i felt lonely and bored,
when i just wanna be treated
like a small girl, wanting attention from you.
Maybe it seems too much fer you,
but just do a favour fer me
cuz i need the strong mental in me for now. -Me

(5) I want a new song, i hope you guys like it aight...This is an alternative
song fer now..I don't wanna a sad song, related to ma life, this song really
nice, i like~....Enjoy guys~

2005-02-04T20:57:00.000+08:00

Hmm hey hi~...Wanna let out some things just to let ma mind, ma soul, ma heart feel betta...

I dunno wad will gonna happen to me now and in the future..*Wondering*
Wad's wit ma life right now?
I dunno.
Am i ok?
I dunno.
Am i doing the right thing?
I dunno.
That is me,
Dunno-gerl.

Lend me your shoulder
when i cry
I need you to hold me tight
and feel much betta
Don't ever ask me why
I too dunno why i cry.

It's a natural emotion when you feel down
I just need you to be near me when ma face frown.
Thinking of the past behind and now
Wad happened in ma life
I admit i cant forget the good and bad times when we were young.
And it's a natural thing fer me to think in that way,
As i've crossed ma path wit you after so many days.

Feel happy and sad wit you
Feel the unbearable pain yet excited when i'm wit you
Guess we had experienced in everthing tat lovers do
So we moved on with our lives, put away our memorable days behind
and learn new things in life which makes you shine.

Don't be afraid to care for someone again
Don't be scared to fall for someone again
Just remember, everything happened is fated
When your path had crossed wit your someone
Just be glad that once in your life, the someone had loved you with all her heart..

Aniway, how's ma day today...It was kinda cool day~...Had lots of Projects right now...Cannot play so much already..Wanna climb and study hard..Well, had a discussion wit ma team members...It's like i gave the Who-de-hell face to them, coz i never had a chance to chat wit them since year 1, and now i have to face them, discuss wit them...Gosh~, but the discussion is great..Let out opinions and to ma surprise, we chat as if we've known fer long time...Ain't tat cool~...Yeah...Just love to make new frends...Esp, chinese and indians...They are way cool~..guess that's all..Bah~ Peace~

2005-02-01T17:22:00.000+08:00

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You're comfortable in social situations that fluster other people. It is in part this ease is that makes you a catch for potential partners. You like to take time to really get to know the people in your life, especially your romantic partner. Your challenge is to make sure that you get what you want out of the time and energy you've invested.

To know more, go to this website aite:"http://web.tickle.com/tests"
Bah~

2005-01-30T19:02:00.000+08:00

HarLowHa~..quite a boring day fer me...Before i eat ma dinner (Mc Chicken Meal)..haha, i wanna wite a new entry...Today nth much...Just ate wit ma family in the morning...then sit at home, sit at home...played com...mainly tat's all..Accompanied ma twin sis went to Mac, bought foods fer ma whole family...

Yesterday, Was whole lot fun...I just love them so much..In the morning, yeah, love the exercises...Way cool~...NO comments at tagboard plz...hahaha, Save your comments and msg me aite...wad else, oh yeah i love meeting Yaty and Lyd..At first quie hard fer me to be hyperactive...haha, bt later on, i can be myself...erm,still not maself...still KEKOK...haha, bt fun...Hmm, we go jalan2 at Faiz Plaza, Yaty bought her new shoes and jeans...But white shoe nicer~...nvm la, hope she liked wad she had already bought..No regrets hor~...haha, then we made our way to check on some earrings...We bought the same earrings...cool!//haha, bt it looked big on me and not nice to put on me...haha...then, we took some pics,8 bucks..Gosh~, bt we had fun certainly...haha...Just missed them so much..Then we chilled at Borders,coffee bean fer a while..Saw Yaty's guy, Yazid..He's still da same, THIN...hahhaa, aniway yeah, it's been long we've seen each otha...after tat, Lyd met her fwens, Yaty met her guy and me, met you...Damn tired, dunno why..Aniway tangs..I've had lsa fun yest...you guys were Cool~...ooh ya, met Yuana wit her guy...Gosh, miss all the kecoh man..

Guess tat's all...Aniting, if you guys wanna meet me, just ring me up aight...Heard, we gonna meet on Fri..Hope the outing is still on...Lastly, I love you guys so much...Muacchz~

Me, Yaty, Lyd....

2005-01-28T16:20:00.000+08:00

Sunday-23.01.2005

In da morning, gotta woke up so early,the frshies girlsand guys were having Rockmaster in SP...Excied + nervous..Gosh, All gerls participated in tat...and i think everyone did well fer the comp..As fer me, not tat good ar...Only got one bunus le..Haiz~, bt felt pressure sia at tat time...just hope ma performance improved fer next comp*prays*...Look at the pics...Took from Nadiah's pics..hehe..

the GerL fResHies

Me!!

KaK LiZ..heaeha

NadiraH..

Ma Twin Sis, NiSa..

Da Da...

Rufi...

Monday-24.01.2005

Fahm's birthdae...HappY bElATeD bIRTHDAy~...went to hischalet..All ma fwens were there, bt fer gerls, Nurrehan was there...the othas went on Tues...haiz, miss them so so much...Watch them played Winning Eleven, then we ate..Then i and you went home...

Me and Wan..

Me and Nurrehan...Muazchz~

Tuesday-25.01.2005

1st day of camp..too bad,Nisa cant make it..hmm, enjoyed the whole day...Climbed at Tanjong Pagar,the place was nice, all air-conditioned...Damn tiring, sleepyy...hehe, but nice, i like..ahhaha..really enjoyed tat day..Look at the pics..

At tanjong pagaR...All posing~

Wit The Coach,Norman, yeah~

Close-up of Us...

i'm belayin~...haha

I'm climbing~..hehe

Wednesday-26.01.2005
Well, the 2nd day of camp, felt damn tired, shag, sleepy...Gosh~..Climbed at Yishun Safra...And the wall were damn high, scary ar..hahhaa...Can't make it to the top...quite hard...Niway, gt blisters...haiz~..So went back home, rest...Slept fer a while, and headed to the Yana's chalet..Well, cool~..almost everyone were there...Nisa always MIA...haiya~...Aniway, the food were damn nice esp. the chiclens..wah~...nice sia...Wanna wish Noor happi BelaTed BirthDae...yeah, she brought his gf...His gf so sweeet...Wah~...tat's all...

Liz, me and Nad...

Me and Sham..

Let's say CheeSE~

Ma gerlS +Herman...

Ah, finally finished....haha, aniway, if you guys wanna browse more pics, you guys can go to ma pictures links aite....kk, havent eat since morning, nvm endure...haha, kk bah~

2005-01-22T22:51:00.000+08:00

In da morning, went wit you, sit in da bus, need to hurry home to buy food fer ma dad, so ended up went home, and u accompanied me..tank u,appreciate it...

Afternoon, ate wit bro and you at Long John,then,played basketball near ma house...CooL~...i'm sure Yazid and you did enjoy rite?...hehe...played at playground, then played pepsi-cola till 7pm..hhahaa...nice~...i'm goood at playing it alweady...haha...

Met Hamizah...haha, makin kurus eh kau...haha...nah,it's nice to see her...Cool~, aiya donno wad to say liao....

P/s:Muah! to everyone...ooopz!!

2005-01-21T13:13:00.000+08:00

Ma day's been more stressful...

I just don't have the chance to say.And if i have, i just can't open up ma mouth and say right up to ur face. All i can do, is to keep quiet, take your hurtful words deep in ma heart and cry. Yeah, i just wanna be like her..Why can't i?...You always compared her wit me, and u were involved wit her..Why i cant be like her?..But this is the way i am...

I knew she's much more intelligent than me, decisive unlike me, strict in her own ways and with othas, but i'm lack of tat,This is me.

But, i love her so much, thou i knew i'm silly..She's better in any ways...But i'm not her.Cant you just get it?.I'm like this.Why must u compare?

It's like everyone comparing bout us and you? u too did the same,and pointed out wad's ma wrong and wad's her right.

Don't you know how damn hard it is to make a big decison in ma life. I knew i took a long time,but it's difficult.Did i care what they wanna say bout me?. No,not of course. Coz i don't give a damn.This is ma life. But what you do,is to hurry up, instead of cooling me down.Give me a break.

Don't u ever think whenever i had ma hard times wit you, i had hard times wit the otha.At the same time.Did you ever know how it feel?No, all you do is to argue.I knew i shud have one in ma life,but don't u ever think why i don't let go.Coz i can't and i know you too can't let me go. I'm still holding on. But you wanna insist, i have to make ma decision fast and now.

Even i made the decision, it's not that i don't care bout your feelings, it's because you want to end it and i have no choice to hurt you. Thou, i'm living happily wit you,doesnt mean i totally forget bout you. There's little spark fer u in ma heart always,same, helplessly...

P/s:And i'll make a wish,take a chance,make a change and break away. I've gotta take the risk,take the chance and make the change and break away.

2005-01-19T19:55:00.000+08:00

HoLa!!~~..heahea, well ,a new entry of mine, is quite short, dont worry...

Hmm, let's start wit last sunday..Woo~...got the tix last minute..Went wit Wan and his fwens..I dont know their names...Was supposed wit Nisa, ma twin sis and my Xinghua fwens, but can't find them...Haiz, miss them....nvm...hhmmm, yeah, the match was damn cool~...haha, i shout, i cheer, i jump, i do kallang wave, i follow everything they did...haha, but paisey le...I'm GERL!!...but, who cares, i don't feel like i'm a gerl at tat time...haha, ooopZ...Heard few of ma fwens said tat, i was in TV...hahaha, confirm selenge!!...Aniway, damn satisfied wit the result, and of course LIONEL LEWIS got the MVP...Gosh~~...He's so WOW...hahha, aniway, he's good...Yay! Saw, Huda, Rufi, Aziz...But i noe there are othas, just can't find them..

Yeah, dunt feel like saying the sad moments tat i've encountered lately...I don'T wanT...Ergh~...Yeah, just wanna shout out loud tat, i MISS YOU!!....Muahzxcz..haha, yeah, i saw ma ex-crush just now, on ma way home...Gosh, tat was so long ago....He happened to be in da bus, he kinda look back at me....Then i just remembered...gosh~...nah, he's still da same, cool~..hehe, shud be 21 this year, his name is HAFIZ...i noe it's like i'm talking bullshit here rite...But, this is ma blog...i can write anything...hehe*evil laugh*...Wadever...

p/s: the picture is nice...Oooh laa laa..haha

2005-01-15T22:34:00.000+08:00

Haiz~, alone at home, but cool~~..listening to ma songs, very louD~...woohoo~, i like tat!!...hehe, yeah, but sth crops up, i don't wanna say bout it...Yeah, to Zero, our fwenship will be as strong as last time, so don't worry yah...hmm, wad else..

Yeah, me revision, ok ok la...Aniway, still considering i wanna go and see the metch, got the ticket from someone...hmm, wanna study le..Really hope S'por win...they can make it one la..Woohhoo~...

Aniway, Avril lavigne kinda change her style right now...bad news fer me..But still ok la...Just hope she didn't go too far, like, Christina aguilera...She sucks and YuckSZ..hahhaa...Aniway, She still rawkzS!!, hmm guess tat's all..

P/s: hope everything's fine tommorow..Bah~

Some pics of me...Check it out~~...Tangs to the cameraman!

In da Library, having bReak after longs hours of SudYing..Like real!!..

At bb, also i study...HaIZ~...hehaeha

StudY again, in liBrary....hehehe...

StuDy again!!...If fail, also, i donnO waD to SAy aRR...,,GHahahhaa...

Celebrate nEw YeaR wit Ma cute CUTE Bro, hahaha...And you too~

Eating at John's place ar..hehahea...

2005-01-15T10:56:00.000+08:00

GooD mOrning!~

I remembered ma past...Did i change to be a better person, or worse...I don't know...Just remembered ma precious once told me..

"Thou i knew this won't last, but whenever you think of me,tell yourself,i will always love you as last time"

Then i woke up. I tried to recall that period of time. I wonder what he'd been doing now. Just hope the best in him, which i had doubt so. He would never change.

Fido Dido told me..

"I will always love you and never breaks your heart"

Thou,i knew it's bullshit fer him to say that,but i wish him the best thou he's gettting worse.

Yeah,the biG muScle,told me once...

"Coz i learn, to love someone is not having on our arms, but to let them go if that makes her happy"

Yeah, and i think it's true.

Wad's ma destiny will be like.
Who's ma life partner wannabe.
Who's the one that i really love. -I don't know

Wanna say,that, i treasure this moment of ma lifetime. I wanna thank you fer loving me wit all your heart,fer tolerating wad i'd done.I will never never find someone so extremly good to me like you do. And now, you are the only one,my eyes lay on. No one else. Believe me. You are the one i wanna be wit in ma whole lifetime and no one else.
Gentle kiss on your forehead, staring deep in your eyes, letting you know, i care so much.

2005-01-12T17:44:00.000+08:00

Kelly Clarkson - Break Away

Grew up in a small town,
And when the rain would fall down,
I'd just stare out my window.
Dreaming of what could be,
And if I'd end up happy,
I would pray.

Try hard to reach out,
But when I tried to speak out,
Felt like no-one could hear me. Wanted to belong here,
But something felt so wrong here.
So I'd pray,
I could break away.

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky,
And I'll make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun,
But I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
ake a change, and break away.

Wanna feel the warm breeze,
Sleep under a palm tree,
Feel the rush of the ocean,
Get onboard a fast train,
Travel on a jetplane,
Faraway, and break away.

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky,
And I'll make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun,
I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I've gotta take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away. Buildings with a 100 floors, Swinging around revolving doors, Maybe I don't know where they'll take me. But I gotta keep moving on moving on, Fly away, break away.
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,
Though its not easy to tell you goodbye.
Gotta take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sky,
But I won't forget the place I come from.> I've gotta take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.

Break away, break away

P/s: I just lurve Kelly Clarkson, Ashlee Simpson and Avril...They rawkS Babeh!!!

2005-01-11T10:16:00.000+08:00

Heylo*damn tirin*

Hmm, so long i never write a new entry...It's just too lotsa projects and quizzes lately..And i hope i passed all fer ma quizzes, thou the paper were hard...NExt week will be a term test week..Gosh, only 3 papers, Ain't tat cool babe??...If i fail one of them, means tat i'm just a stupid, useless ass!!...Projects??...I don't know, it seems to be ok fer now la...later??...It will be a mess as usual...Let's see wad projects i had done wit, just to clear up ma mind..

:IFCTech proposal and report
:Java mini project
:IA mini project
:UIR project

Yeah, quite achievement fer me, but thanks a lot to Din, Shifa and Lina of course...Without them, i dun have any idea how to finish up ma projects..Love ya'll...Coming up wit IFCTech project and JAVA project after ma term test...I mean damn BIG projects...just hate them..but, i'm wit ma chinese classmates, and they were like, so intelligent and full of ideas..Shud not be a problem wit ma IFCTech...haiz~..

Now, let's open up wit a new topic...Hmm,Lotsa things to write, but, i had short-term memory, cant able to recall wad been happening to me past few days...So sorry...

Yeah, MTN8(i think) won fer match..Congrats aite...However, i dont think the team members and maself really satisfied wit the result due to few probs...Don't wanna comment lots la...they also big enough, know how to think la..Yeah, and fer ETCM, nvm, you guys were great too..IT's ok..And yeah, i feel like slapping the organisers upside down...Wad the **** system...I also don't wanna comment lots la...Yeah, not forgetting Nad, she hold a second position in double badminton..Congrats!!...

Wad else, lately, ma sis had a hot, siZZling arguement wit ma fwens...I also don't wanna comment la...She's ma sis, and you guys are ma fwens...Haiya~~...Piece of advice: Forgive and forget, everyone made mistakes..

Yeah, yesterday was like a hell day fer me...It's just lotsa things in ma mind...**** to them all!!...I feel like telling them, Don't be a busybody here...If you want to assume bout me, YOU BETTA ASK ME WAD'S THE PROBLEM...Wat they know is to assume and tell others...Can't you guys just tell me that wad's your problem huh??...
I'm here trying to solve ma prob which is like, so damn difficult, and you guys just BLOODY, SIMPLY making new probs to me tat i have to consider!!...AsshoLES!!...Yesterday, was like, pple around me just create probs fer me...How painful it was, but, nevermind...

Maybe, i'm just too weak, i can't stand up for ma rights..Maybe, i'm just a stupid ass..Yeah, i noe..But let me tell you this, u havent see the REAL FIZA!!, used to be damn proud, and don't give a damn bout wad people gonna say bout her and this time, tis fer real...I'm gonna do what i want...Fwens wanna advise me, fer sure, you guys can...but, i have the right fer maself to decide which advice is the best fer me...

Gosh, this entry is just bout ma frustation..hope you guys are ok with it..I really wanna say sorry to YOUs..I know it's ma fault, and i'm the one who made your life more miserable right now...Do forgive me...Haiz~, haiz~...

Guess, tat's all...Hmm, yeah, maybe you guys don't get wad i'm trying to say now...ii do it on purpose..Just wanna shout out loud, "DON'T BE SO CHILDISH", "THINK OF OTHER PPL THOUGHTS","**** OFF", "ASSHOLES"...Yeah, thou it was kinda late, Wanna wish Wan, a Happy BelAteD bIrtHdaY!!!...DA 18 pon!!..haha, finally...Wish u all de best la k...

P/s: I'm sorry if tat hurts you..

~~ end wit A SMILE~

2005-01-01T22:16:00.000+08:00

Hello Wello!!~~~....Cool wanna say to everyone out der a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!.....Muachz muachz~!!!hehe,bye to 2004 and new hi to 2005!!!...Woohhooo~..Of cuz, lotsa things to write...*take a very DEEP breath*

Ma dream and resolution for 2005
I dunno yet..But sum tings fer sure..I really really wanna be a better gal..Be close wit ma fwens especially ma gerlfwens....Dunno where are they now..."Yaty, Lyd, wer the hell are you guys?"...hehe...And Ivan!!...He's always MIA sia...Ergh!!...just hope he's doing fine right now..I wanna study hard, pass ma papers and get diploma fer sure..I dun wanna waste ma time doing nothing, even if i did somethings, i do well fer tat...Ma dream, is to live happily, cheerfully, happy family and fwens and to have MONEY...haha, oopz!...And of cuz, learn new stuffs...learn to be a betta gal...Gosh!!...And be with the one i truly love...Foreva...

Ma memories for 2004
Since early this year, i'm with Elfy...Cool~...but, broke up wit him cuz, somehow, we cant get along too well..Anyway, he's serving NS rite now and attached with someone that he love...Wish him happy always...Then be wit dearest fwen in June...but somehow, can't work out...Wanna wish him happy new year..May 2005 brings in light and prosperous to you...Get to know Suhail and Firdaus1 and Firdaus2 along de way, but things didn't work out..Then till now, single jingle mingle...hahhaa, but dont wanna find anymore..I had lotsa cool fwens around me...Having them in ma life is so memorable...U're always in ma heart....Each and every memory,haiz, it's too nice to be forgotten..

Thanks to
Ma TP fwens that made a difference in ma life...Naseer, Rino, Izad, Nad, Yan, Sam, Ahmad, Reefqi, Osman, Hairil, Khaleef, Shifa, Din, Farhan, Lina and to those who i dont mention....it's not tat i dun wanna mention...I may be forgotten...Those who say hi and bye to me...TanGZ!!...U guys just made ma day, and those who ever smiled to me too...Ma Bartley fwens...How i wish sumtimes we can go outing wit u guys this year, but seems everyone of us is busy wit their own things...Say thanGZ to Yaty and Lyd..You guys were great..I love U!!..Thanks to Ahmad fer always be there fer me..Miss all ma bartley fwens...ergh!!...Dun forget to thanks ma Xinghua fwens...Thou we dun meet too often, everytime we meet, we keep chatting and chatting and have fun together..You guys RAWKZ!!...Wanna say tangs to Fahmy of cuz...Tangs fer being ma great fwen last time...Sorry fer not contacting you, bt i had always remember you, ma greatfwen..Yeah to ma climber fwens, Liz, Raudhah, Nad, Idris and othas...Jokes wit you guys just made the training more interesting...And to ma otha fwens, thank you!!...To Ronaldo and sexyboy, tang u so much fer always always being der fer me, when i'm down, when i'm moody, when i need someone to talk to...You guys were awesome..No words can describe ya'll...You guys were the best...The list just go on la...

Wad's been happening now
Firstly, i wanna keep silence fer a minute in respect to the Tsunami victims...It was just so sad..Lotsa people died..the death toll just keep increasing..Haiz~...Learn something from there...Hope this disaster will end soon...*prays*...Ma life, cool~...Ma motto:Live life happily and meaningfully....hahhaa....I love ma life...New year??...Nah, went to Yan's jemputan..Went wit Nisa and Nad...wow, Nad looks so EXTRA sweet today...hahhaa...Really!!...Saw Idris, Naseer, Rino, Mad, Osman, Khaleed, Mus and Hairil too...They rewang...haha...Wad a bad job u guys did...Damn slow sia!!....hahha...Then went to see tat Faiz...Cool~~...Takde kerja tgk die cuci motor...Yeah, and he drove us home...Cool~..But damn fast...Scary sia...haha...Saw his abang...The face same...haha...but the height, really different...hehe...Then, afta tat, spending time at ma nenek's house..Boring!!...But lucky got Martin!!!....Miss him like hell...Now, he can walk already, but very nakal ar...ERGH!!...hehe...Yesterday, went out wit Ronaldo and ma bro...Gonna upload ma pics...Had fun, bt sth crops up...haiz~...The rides were so damn scary...GOSH!!!...haha, but COOL~...

Kla i continue later,tired...Misss u badly !!!...haiz~...k bah!

2004-12-26T20:51:00.000+08:00

U2-Vertigo[Ma faV]
(Come on sing with me...)

Uno, dos, tres, catorce
(Turn it up loud, captain)

Lights go down
It's dark, the jungle is
Your head can't rule your heart
I'm feeling so much stronger
Than I thought
Your eyes are wide
And though your soul
It can't be bought
Your mind can wander

<Hello, hello (¡Hola!)
I'm at a place called Vertigo (¿Dónde está?)
It's everything I wish I didn't know
Except you give me something
I can feel, feel

The night is full of holes
These bullets rip the sky
Of ink with gold
They twinkle as the boys
Play rock and roll
They know that they can't dance
At least they know

I can't stand the beats
I'm asking for the check
The girl with crimson nails
Has Jesus around her neck
Swinging to the music
Swinging to the music

Hello, hello (¡Hola!)
I'm at a place called Vertigo (¿Dónde está?)
It's everything I wish I didn't know
But you give me something
I can feel, feel

(Checking it)
(Shadows fall)
(She'll make it)

All this, all of this can be yours
All of this, all of this can be yours
All this, all of this can be yours
Just give me what I want
And no one gets hurt

Hello, hello (¡Hola!)
We're at a place called Vertigo (¿Dónde está?)
Lights go down, and all I know
Is that you give me something
I can feel your love teaching me how
Your love is teaching me how
How to kneel, kneel

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

2004-12-26T08:31:00.000+08:00

Hie, i woke up so early today...u guys wanna know why??...I just had a really bad dream...is HE hinting me something...Even if it is, i can't do anything right now...i just cant...It already happened, and i possibly cant..i guess...or maybe, U'll show the way, i dunt know...I just feel really damn bad..

And now, ma mind is blank, damn blank, only remember bout the nightmare...Gosh!!...I f the someone can hug me now, i wanna hug de someone...i just feel tat it worked...i don't know...Ma mind really totally blank...i cant seem to remember who is who...Nvm, You, plz dun ask me...i'm alright..i just need to post here, and tat's all...tangs!...Ok bah!

2004-12-25T14:28:00.000+08:00

Hie hie!!..it's been almost a week i didn't update..HAiz~..very the lazy!!...Aniway, how's ma days??...GREAT!!...seriously, ma best week today...lots of things i did..So, i won't write la..YEah, aniway wishing HAzwan, HAppy birthday to you and every christian, A happy Merry Christmas to you guys...I just hope i can meet Moon Teng, Vong Sy and Ivan NOW...haha, well, they made a differnce in ma life once..Haiz~...i wonder what they doing now..I feel like going to Cambodia with Nisa and find this Vong Sy..haha, craps!

How would you feel if someone just don't believe in wad u do and wad u say..The someone will think you were just a child and don't know de surroundings as if you were just born..And too bad tat's de someone your hearts long fer, the special one..I dont like tat..i hate tat..

I just wanna say thanks to YOU fer making me happy always...Cool~...hehahea....k, i guess tat's all, back to ma assignment..SIGH!!...hahaa...K bah!

P/s: Wo yong yuen yong yuen shi huan ni...

2004-12-20T14:24:00.000+08:00

Helo helo people out der!!...haha..ok, this morning, i didn't go to sch..Stomach pain..On da way to school, then patah balik again..haha...Cannot tahan already...Yeah, and i bet Shifa didn't go to sch too...hmmm..Aniway, went back home, then my mum asked me to accompny Yazid to extend his passport...Tiring, but i really really had a GREAT time, man!!...Woooohoo, and i'm sure, Yazid did too..But, damn boring a thome, so i will be going back to school fer Rock and Roll!!...haha, no, go climb..Mizz yea like hell, bt nvm...

Aniway, yest went to jemputan...It was so COOL~...haha..Well, i've got to see alot of pretty gerls and handsome boys wearing punjabi suits and kurta...Cool right??...Gosh!!...Cair man!!...haha, yept, and the pengantin guy sang 2 songs fer his beloved wife...Sweet right??...haha, the 2 songs were Pretty woman and Kal Ho Na Ho....WOW!!...haha, and the Djs sang modern hindustani songs too, like Mahive, Disko, Dil, and more...Woohoo~...yeah, and nice foods too...Wow!!...Yeah saw some of ma age dancing moves...wah, nice ar...Haiya...If like this, i want to marry wit Peranakan boy ar...hahaha...NAh, just kidding...Guess that's all...wanna have a short nap...K BAH!

2004-12-18T20:14:00.000+08:00

Hie~~...gosh!!!..Quite a long time i wrote a new post!!...haha...Guess you guys wanna know how's ma life rite now???hahhaa...(tak tau malu)...Aniway, let me start with a big sigh...HHhhhAaaahhhh!!...

Ma studies, slack like hell, trying to catch up ma assignments deadlines..And i hope i'm able to take SIP next year..*pray*

Yeah, i can't remember wad i wanna wrote but, i'11 start bout yesterday..Finished at 4pm, got CDS...Yeah had a PROJECT on tat...ERGH!!...Hanifi and Marliana were in ma group..Cool~..Yeah, and i thought Hanifi is not a friendly type, got a "don't like gerls" face..Hahaha,yeah u proved me wrong..I'm sorry!!...Stay kental and funny always..hahha...Then, quickly went to turf and support them!!...haha..gerls :only me and Yathy..Yeah they got into quarter-final, and same goes to Wan's team..They all were so COOL~...Good job ar...YEah, and i lurve your "curl goal"...Wooh~...yeah, and the best thing they won YEAR 3 students...Wooohoo~....i don't know why...i just hate them so much...Yulkk...Yeah, Wan and li got some injuries...hope they were ok rite now..Yeah, and li kept saying "Aku top scorer skarang"...haha...ERgh!!..then, went to Tamp wit you...Check out some things, then we ate..then go home...

Today, great!!....Since morning, i've been sitting at turf till afternoon..Gosh!!...I kena sunburn..Damn red, or shud i say my skin is maroon now??...haha...Yeah, and guess wad, WE WON!!....Same to Wan's team...Bet, next match will be Wan's and Our team...Gossh!!...haha...Yeah, after tat, went to Pasir Ris, ate..then, went home...relaxing at home...yeah, then ate again..haha..yeah, basically tat's all...I don't know why today seems so great!!...haha...hmm..

Wad else, I dunnola...tangs fer tagging guys..appreciate tat..I just wanna say thanks to ma fwens especially Kak Shifa fer making ma days happy always..

Oh yeah, i'm not flirty, i'm not bitchy and i'm not gatal...I'm just being friendly...and maybe, tat's the way i am...I'm being friendly cuz i hope i make their days bright whenever they were sad or moody...And they remembered me as their friend...No otha intentions...

Having you always brighten up my days
Whenever i'm feeling so bad
You were always there fer me
Trying your best to entertain me

My feelings fer you were real
But, i'm just scared
Labour ma feelings just like that
Maybe you will turn me down
and be not 'You' somehow

Though i'm feeling mixed
One thing fer sure
You are the one i need
You are the one my heart longs fer
Always and Forever...

Gosh, hahaha...Emo a bit but nevermind...Haiz~...just hope that everything will turn out fine...Just praying fer tat...I don't know when will i be attach again??...Maybe yes and maybe no...It's beeen 6 months i'm being single...Gosh!!...haha...Haiz~..

Really hope everything will turn out fine...haiz~ haiz~...I dont know why i kept missing you, but i can't do anything right now...MA mind is clear...Haiz~...Wad i meant is there's no doubt who i wanna be with...I'm just hoping the one i be with will treasure me lots and lots, listen to me whenever i have probs, always made me happy and not hurt most of times...Is tat easy fer someone to give me all till forever??...MAybe it's hard..Gosh, CRYING right now!!...Emo sia Fiza!!..hahha..

Aniway, these were some pics fer today!!

The GerL sUppOrTers!!

The Team pluS ME(sibuk-sibuk)

2004-12-14T13:25:00.000+08:00

Hi, miss alot and alot...Miss Sam, Nad, Izad, Yan, Naseer, Rino..and others...Gosh!!...But, i've been damn busy wit ma school works and tat someone..haha...But, i miss you guys!!...I will be ssupporting you guys on Saturdy aight...Stooleg is back..Wish u guys luck and wish Wan's team luck also...

How's ma life??

Sick, so sick!!...Haiz...yesterday was really a bad day fer me..one whole body felt hot..And, so weak...Can't stand air-condition in the bus...Yesterday, had ma climb training...Ma performance..i think okla but i'm damn weak yesterday...The 2 coach let me changed ma attire..Cool~..Yeah, just silent while training...Have to buck up...hehaea...Aniway i LOVE the Team 1....haha...yeah today, nearly went to sch but i patah balik..hehe..Wad broken Eng is tat...i just can't take it the Aircon and imagine i have to tahan fer 40 mins...gosh!!...Yeah, i wanna rest and do ma assignments later...haiz~...i dun wanna slack!!...

Yeah u gave me a smallie cutie-cutie pinchie pinchie cushion..Is it a cushion??...haha, i dunno how to describe...but it's so cute, and so touched wit it...and the best part, got your perfume and those written some more...Wah!!...haha...Gosh, thank you So So much fer tat...

And thank YOU so much fer accompany me just now...

YEah, to ma cuzz, i don't noe why u take it so serious about this thing...And we told her coz we mean no harm..And ma mum is ok with it, and she just give you advice no to be possesive...Get it??...Take it as a positive one..And i dont wanna fight wit you cuz it waste ma time...i don't have a lot of cousins ard me aniway...i dun wanna this thing to happen coz i've lost ma fav fav cousin long time ago...And i dont wanna lose you..I really enjoy so much when i'm wit you guys...Or maybe, i say sorry will cool you down aight..

Yeah wad else, nothing la i guess..Wanna eat again, then eat panadol, then bathe then sleep, then do ma assignments...Yeah!!

K Bah!

2004-12-11T22:01:00.000+08:00

Haiz~ haiz~...dunnoe wer to go just now, so went out wit ma sis, Nisa, went shopping a bit ar at J8 and took pics together..Cool aight~...Yeah and these guys kept staring at us..and i think they wanna get to know us, but, too BAD ar!!...Too BAD!!...We quickly went out from there...hahhaa...I lurve u Nisa, so so MUCH!!...fida and Yazid!!!...yeah!!

Tot of surprising tat someone, bt it's cancelled...haiz~...da siap2 sey tadi, bt nvm la....another time la..Haiz~....

YEah, read my fatin's blog...gosh!!...gila ar dierni...Taufik jer!!!...haha, but he is cool right??!!..she took pics wit him..haiz~...haha...And you didn't tell me your bro's going to Hip Hop fest!!...Benci ar!!..BENCI...ERGH!!!...regret!!.but, nvm...haiz haiz~...yeah u bought him prezzie some more...I ketuk you then you know ar...hahaha...Aniway, miss you and your brozz...haiz~...Meet up soon yeah...Love you guys...

Haiz~..tat's all..today's is my HAIZ day fer me...

2004-12-11T10:21:00.000+08:00

Hie, woke up so early, but try to sleep back, but then, the dream was not tat nice, so i woke up, and headed to com..check ma friendster, ma hotmail, ma blog and otha blogs..Got alot and alot of things i wanna write..*still smelly*

Got a climb meeting wit the freshies, seniors and juniors..Well, quite draggy, but the best part was the last part..where evryone got the chance to say what they think of the othas in that team..Cool~...So starts off with this one guy..some things he said, it's irrelevent...I just wanna come to him straight to his face and said, "Better think before u say out, u FUCKER!!" ..Maybe, u guys got the hint who's that guy...But then, i chose to be silent...I just cant speak up..And when, the juniors and seniors were to asked to go out of tat meetin fer a while, the freshies started to tell everything...Yeah, and Raudhah and Nad spit out EVERYTHING!!...I was like..nodding ma head, showing i totally agreed wit them..Me and Liz, just kept silent, tho we had our points, bt i dun think tat's important..And we chuckle and chuckle..hhaha...Kk, serious..But, i LURVE the way Wak speak out...Woooh~....He shudnt be in freshies...He is more experienced ar than u guys..He had served NS and been climbing in his ITE...So??...i suggest the seniors and juniors really have to think of his suggestions seriously cuz IT GONNA WORK...trust me..He's the BEST ar..And yeah white, u did a good job yesterday...haha, i dunno maybe i've been into NCC AIR last time and did held meetings...Yesterday's meeting was a good one, but a bit draggy ar..

I just seen some climbers' true colors...The rudeness, they think they were the big ones wit the big thing sitting on their heads...If your attitude were remain still the same, you never go far..i just hate that attitude..Few of you guys only la..But maybe, i'm wrong cuz i dunno them that much...but first impression, "Gosh, u SUX!!"

WEll, how's ma life..Ma happiest day will be on Thursday..i started ma lesson at 8am, bt, had been cancelled..ERGH!!...ended up wit Wan and Shifa, eating at Design...and then, Wan went fer his class, left me and Shifa..Cool~...Finally, u spoke up to me lots of things..Woo~...I love u KAK...wah, best ar...i got 2 kakak already ar...Liz and you ar...hahhaa..Cool~...I love u both!!..the tall and short kakak...

Yeah, if the climbers read this post..i wanna say that maybe Nisa will quit..She kept sayin tat...i dunno tat's her final decision..i try to persuade her ar...hahaha...

Yesterday, went out wit you...Nice outing aniway..Yeah, and got one time, i went to toilet..Saw these two JAP guys, holding bottle of beer..One of the guys approached to me..Gosh, i felt like running away, bt, ma legs were stiff, cant moved..We were so close, and he muttered somthing...scared bt still try to listen what he wanna say...He said "THIS IS THE MEN'S ROOM"...hahaha, paisey ar!!...bt actin cool, asking him "Wer's the lady's room then?"....Gosh!!...hahhaa...

Yeah, ma lovelife...Aww, i dunno how la...Difficult to say out..When there's a right time, i will say out...not now, but really soon...

Yeah saw Suhail at Tp..Gosh, heart attack ar...haha..he hinting sth...but, that was all last time sey..He's in Infocomm..Yeah...haiz~..hope i dun get to see him again!!!....ergh!!...hahhaa

Lastly, i miss ma YATY and LYD!!

I miss you
I need you
Always!
hahahha....kk, tat's enuff..BAH!

Here are some pics of mine...Check this out!!

Me wearing the PUMA..

The close-up of me...Yuickz!

The merajuk Face!!

ME on ma spec at Toa Payoh

P/s:Tangs to The cameramans..Lose my breathe!!...heahea

2004-12-07T21:26:00.000+08:00

Hey~...Donnow wat to write, so i'm gonna end up talking things which u guys dunt understand at all...haha...

my life~, as usual, complicated at all times...

To sexyboy, I hope u understand wat i'm doing now..it's not tat i'm indecisive..And now, i even read sum articles, just for you...haha...Can't tell you wat it is..And yeah, tat gals ar really look at u like want to eat you ar!!....ERGH!!!..(take it easy)sabar fiza, sabar fiza....

To ronaldo, haiz~ haiz~...i dunno what to say..*SILENCE*We had a good talk during our break just now..cuz, i've open up sum of things tat i feel and how i look at things...Haiz~ haiz~... i hope u really ok..you know wad i mean..I'm sorry i disappoint you again today..And yeah, I'm being cruel..

Yeah, to azmi, hope u get the appeal...just wanna say tat u have a group of gd frends around you...thanks to them...they did alot just fer you...hope u really get the appeal and be wit them..*WISHING LUCK*

To ppl that concern about ma life, have been gossipping bout ma life, been assuming lots of things..this post fer u guys... I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING AND U GUYS HAVE NO RIGHT TO ASSUME THINGS BOUT ME AND OTHAS...IF YOU GUYS REALLY WANNA KNOW THE TRUTH,COME TO ME..I APPRECIATE IT..STOP TALKING BEHIND MA BACK..

To Naseer, Sam and Rino, i'm sorry...i really didn't notice you guys just now..I'm really sorry...i felt bad right now...To Naseer, tangs fer always understand me, thou u never asked me what's going on with ma life..Same to Rino...Gosh, Tangs fer really understand me and being matured...I really appreciate tat...

To izad, i'm so sorry, hope u tell wad u've been hiding from me!!...I know wad it is aniway...i'll help ya as much as i can..hehe

To din, farhan, shifa and lina, i still missh you guys lots ar...and now, i'm all alone in the class...Ma class ar, all i dunno la..Sum keep quiet, 2 were friendly, sum keep smiling...tangs fer tat...got long hour breaks, SHIT!!

And now, i'm tired, really wanna go climb tomm!!...YARGGGHHH!!!...i'm gonna rock the WALL!!...heahea...

K, i'm crazy rite now...miss U LOTS AND LOTS...Gonna star ma project...ass, 3rd and fourth week have to pass up 2 project proposal and everything...Nvm ar i'm used to it...ERGH!!...Yeah, i'm happy, i'm smiling....but GOD knows how much this hurts and really wanna end up soon...Only GOD knows...Some of the hurtful words...Some of the hurtful actions u 've made...only GOD knows how i felt...

guess tat's all..

2004-12-06T13:29:00.000+08:00

Hi!!!...ERGH!!...very tiring today!!...yeah, fer u guys info, today's ma FIRST day going to school..Yarrrggh!!!...hehe..morning, went to school wit Wan and Rino..Woke up ard 615am...haiz~..wad to do, ma class starts at 8am...same class wit me??...BORING!!...Shifa is in ma ICA lab too..Cool!!..hehe, happy to see ya..admit i miss ma classmates..Din, Farhan, Lina, Avin, Alston, Yong Hoe and de rest!!!...haiz~..Saw alicia just now...hahaha, break-up already..haha..nvm, u so pretty ar..dun worry..confirm lots of guys wanna get to know u..Just wait..took pic wit her..ACTION, kaopei ar this gerl!!...i know your hp very nice ar..ERGH!!...haiya, miss her lots too, tho we dun really know each otha..hopw we got the same CDS ar..like last sem...haha...Gosh, i'm talking craps!!

my life, gosh damn complicated..Haiz~ haiz~...i'm lost..Help ME!!!peace OuT..BAH!

2004-12-03T13:06:00.000+08:00

BORED, BORED, BORED!!!....Now??...Listening to ma songs, play CS...heahea..I'm expert already ar...hehe..waiting fer tat someone to call me...coz, i'm deadly bored...I wanna go out!!...haiz, bt, there's sth inside telling me not to go out..Donno why...Yeah a kinda BIG thingy happened yesterday...Gosh!!...ma mind was damn blank at tat time..But, u cooled me down...tangs!!..

Your eyes were red yesterday
You look different yesterday
Suddenly, i dunno wad i felt
dunno wanna feel sad,
or feel happy when i see you..
Just cry, i dunno why?
It's just happened naturally..

hahaha...Naturally pe Fiza??hahhaa..Ooops..Kk, i upload this song and put it at ma blog, bt as usual, the song didn't come out!!...Ergh...But, if somehow, it's miracle, i wanna u guys to see along..

Linsay Lohan--Rumors

Saturday steppin' into the club
And it makes me wanna tell the DJ
Turn It Up
I feel the energy all around
And my body can't stop moving to the sound

But I can tell that you're watching me
And you're probably gonna write what you didn't see
Well I just need a little space to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy

[BRIDGE:]
Why can't you just let me
Do the things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I'm gonna live my life
Like I wanna do

[CHORUS:]
I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

Here we are back up in the club
People taking pictures
Don't you think they get enough
I just wanna be all over the floor
And throw my hands up in the air to a beat like (What?)

I've gotta say respectfully
I would like it if you take the cameras off of me
'Cause I just want a little room to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy

[BRIDGE:]
Why can't you just let me
Do the things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I'm gonna live my life
Like I wanna do

[CHORUS:]
I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

I just need to free my mind (my mind)
Just wanna dance and have a good time (good time)

I'm tired of rumors (rumors)
Followed (followed, followed, followed, followed, followed)

What they (follow) me
Why can't they (they they they-they-they) let me live

Take this for just what it is

[CHORUS:]
I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

Ok BAH!!

2004-12-02T10:07:00.000+08:00

Hi...K first thing i wanna you guys to shout out fer TAUFIK!!!

He won, yahoo!!!....Gosh, he's cool, his power voice..sure he can make it in music industry one la..Hope the best fer him!!!...hehe!!...YARGHHH!!!!!!...But Sly is good too...He's doing great with his image...hahhaa!!!

kk, i dunno wat to write...BLANK!!...hehe...

Oh yah, dunno why, yesterday, i felt tat something is missing..Gonna figure out soon!!..K BAH!

2004-11-29T14:48:00.000+08:00

I don't have crushes. And now, it's only YOU and YOU. Yeah, i knew sumtimes i don't think the way as you think. I'm just a bad girl and indecisive. Yeah tat's a right word. I'm always silent. But how am i gonna let out everything. It's hard to do it. I don't know why. So, i guess it takes time. Shit with it.

I'm in a good mood. Don't you worry. I think i do suffer from Split Personality. I'm different in last time and now. I better go and see doctor. Or. Maybe, i have to go and see Pshycosiatrist. Don't know how to spell it correctly. So be it.

As i say, i'm still in good mood to talk. Still in good mood to go out. Still in good mood fer everything.

2004-11-28T20:07:00.000+08:00

I hate them!!

Guys, give comments!! tangs

2004-11-27T13:53:00.000+08:00

Hie, woke up inda morning...Hmm, noting to do, jus upload my hari raye pics...later i will put the links up here aight, then u guys can save pics from here...Easy Right??...hehe...Me, bought slipper yest...hehehe, Yeah again!!...A nice one!!..Went out wit you!!...then, as usual probs again...haiz~~...but i'm ok!!..haha...

Aniway wanna wish Fazli haPPy BirThday!! in advanced!!...Gosh, missh him lots and lots...Ma fwen and ma far cuzz!!....yeah and wanna wish a newly wed to Haz sis!!...De pretty one!!...

Miss my Yaty lots and lots too, and YOU!!!...hahhaa

Me and Fazli!!

2004-11-25T15:07:00.000+08:00

Hie, in skool, donno where to go already so, betta surf nets...How's my life??, i dunno..but, i'm chilling..wadever they wanna think of me, so be it..u guys wanna say i'm immature, i'm still a child, dunno anitin...so be it..i dun give them a ****....up to you alright...if you dunno aniting happened in my life, so betta keep your mouth shut ok..you guys have eyes and saw, and start assumin..Just go ahead ok..I'm cool with it..It's not you, don't worry..it's about this bunch of guys who dont noe me well, and start talking behind ma back...tat's their pastime..so i'm rally ok with it..and now i'm still as cheerful as before...looking forward fer next sem...i miss the grill chicken, foods at Design..WOW!...haha..Last mon wentjalan raye wit my TP fwens...Total of 20..they were
:Nisa,Hana,Osman,Nad,Yan,Izad,Naseer,
Rino,Hairil,Mus,Ahmad,Hakim,Khaleef,Rifqi,
Sam,Afiqah,Rasul,Fiqah,Shafiqah,Idris
Cool, fun, missh them lots..haiz~...hahathe best and the nicest house, bet should be Ahmad and Khaleef..Miss esp Sam..haha..Shocked he was der too..Ahmad, wahalu, he's a gd helper...Gosh..Listen gerls..Whoever wants a really helpful guy, "ringan tangan"..he's your choice...haha..Yeah, and remembered when we wanna go off, that is the time we said sorry bout mistakes wad we done, be it purposely or not...yeah, it's nice feeling...Cool~..Took pics...Later, if i've got time, i upload and let u guys see...ok!!

On Tues, went out wit ex-bartleyans, total of ard 20 too..go and sewa the transport..sum of the gerls cant make it, heard that they gonna organised jalan raye wit the gerls only nxt week, hope it's still on..Miss them so much..And they were
:Yaty,Ham,Haz,Mizah,Azan,Lyd mok,Fazli,
Ahmad,Hajjah,Tajuddin,Wan kecik,Shah,
Shahril and her gal,Acit and her gal,Haikal
Azian,Azri,Hamdan
Yeah miss them lots esp. miss Fazli..Gosh!!...Gonna put our pics here..hope u pass your results or u also kena kick out...Haha...lots of jokes, can't remember which one's de best,naughty guys...Haiya..

Lastly miss you lots and lots...hehe..Catch up wit ya soon...K go!!

2004-11-21T14:14:00.000+08:00

hie, waiting fer my makciks and pakciks to come...Haiz~..Miss them lots and lots..Haiz~..Can't wait to sse them..We gonna had lotsa fun..Cool~..Miss ma martin..and miss YOU!!...erm, how's ma day, i'm feeling betta, hope u feel betta too..yest was like a bad day fer me..went out wit ma family like no mood..ma hair in mess, no touchup..it's like i wore the kurung then ready to go!!....Yeah, and i realise and found out, i've got migrane yest...hahaha...Damn, i can't move ma head..Damn pain..But now ok already...Aniway, gonna change my blog layout again..haiz~..

Aniway, a big shout out to Sham...Happy birthday to YOU!!...Hope ur wish came true and be happy always ok..heahea...okla tat's all i guess..K bah!!!

2004-11-20T13:42:00.000+08:00

Hie, woke up inda morning, kinda fed-up moody...these days, things didn't go my way..everything seems to be so wrong..EVERITING!!...I'm gonna give up my life..

I wanna meet u up and talk things out so we have nothing to against each otha, but u chose not to meet, so i assume u wanna let you yourself to have bad impression on me forever..it's not the way you think..i'm fed-up, u throw out wad u say without thinking my thoughts and asked me wad had rily happened, but u chose to assume..You assume things about me?!?!...i'm shocked..I guez you were still the old you...You really have not changed...But, i can't please everyone right??....This is impossible..So, i don't care, wad u wanna think of me...but, still now, i always have a good impression on you, forget bout this...as u said, forgive and forget..Frends forever..

Now, i really dont know wad i'm gonna do..I betta keep silence..It's really worth it..And to Ronaldo and Sexyboy, i really dont know wad to do...i'm sorry to keep u guys waiting..and tangs fer everything...you guys are really important ones in my life now...Tangs fer being therewhen i need it...I mean it..

Yesterday, jalan raya with my old pri fwens..Yeah and now, their schools scattered everywhere...Most are ites, and some in polys...People were there:
Shidah
Huda
Nisa
Nurrehan
Fahmy
Izad
Is
Djamadil
Shafie
Yazid
Faisal
Farhan
Amsar
Gosh, i forgot who else...these i can remember..aniway, i had good times with them esp, the girls...miss them so much..kla, i just hate myself, hate someones..she's such a annoying person...I hate her!!...I really damn hate her...she went home form work...I just hate her like hell..She kept scolding my loved ones...I hate YOU!!!!

2004-11-20T13:36:00.000+08:00

You always prefer mantel decisions more then emotional ones due to
this
you don't have a limited number of friends. You consider life a very
beautiful gift and you love to enjoy its colors. There are a number of
peoples who are your ideals and you loved to spend a big part of your
time
with them. You are found to be a very sincere lover.

You have a perfect control on your emotions but sometimes your
decisions
really effect your beloveds.

p/s: This is the true me...

2004-11-17T13:17:00.000+08:00

Yeah, wanna say Selamat Hari Raye to all my fwens...Maafkan fiza kalo ade tersilap kata, terkasar bahasa...Halalkan makanan dan minuman fiza...Maafkan je la k..Selamat hari Raya to u all...-Smile-

2004-11-17T13:11:00.000+08:00

I feel shitty today, everything is shit to me..wanna let out how i feel, but i think no use...You wont listen aniway..It's all bullshit..I'm speechles..and de only best way is to silent..tat's de way..Wad u wanna say, just say it out if tat makes u feel betta..I'm ok with it...SHIT!

2004-11-04T13:39:00.000+08:00

Holla everyone~..well, well, well...done with my suppapers..Router & switching??..Can do la..Fer java..i can do,bt, my answers can be wrong..if wrong ar, then retake tat module again la...haiya!!...Troublesome!!..Aniway, wad's up with my life..today is one of the last ten days of Ramadhan, and, hope i can gain something from this holy month...Well, i can say that i enjoyed going Terawih..It's really nice feeling where you can see other muslimahs praying in scarfs...Though i admit, it's tiring, but, i do enjoy it..And yeah, tat's where i met Yaty, her sporty, funny mom, her cute grandma,her siblings, esp. her last,cute sis...Man, i miss them so so much..Yeah, we chat and chat, haha...As usual..Haiz~..Miss you Yaty!!..Wad else, hmm..my mom bought 2 kurungs fer me..actually was supposed one only this year..But i pshyco2 her ar..hahaha..Yeah cool~...both looks nice on me(hehe), but one of them, is a bit big ar..haiya!!..Yeah really hope that you wore the same color as me while going out together kiez!!...Better make sure ar...hehe..Can't wait fer RaYa!!...haha..What i like most about it was the food, food and food!!!...Yeah, i luuurrvveee kuihs and ketupats and rendang and sambal ayam and sambal udang and the list go on..GoSH!...haha...yeah, that's when i can visit all my cousins, aunties and ALL of my fwens..Hope so..Yeah one last thing, my love life..Gosh, it's really lots of things to write, but no mood to talk about this now..guess next time...Haiz~..but, i love and enjoy everyday!!..Seeing you makes my day, calling you makes my life more interesting..I wanna thank YOU fer all these...YOU made a difference in my life...Thank you..Appreciate it so so much..Yeah, it's been long ago since i wrote bout my dearest fwen...haha, hope he's doing fine always and happy always..K tat's all i guess...To you guys who missed me so so much, Muuuuaaaahh fer you...hahaha

2004-10-29T16:25:00.000+08:00

I'm all stressed up..Run there, run here!!..-ERGH-...I'm rily sick of it!!..I will be the crazy one in the end, if this continues...not you all!!!..To my fwens, don't ask me, cuz i'm not gonna tell you..Get it?!?!

2004-10-21T14:29:00.000+08:00

Hie~...Okiez, went out wit Wan last Tues, breake fast together..Ate at Arnold...woohhoo~..Tangs so much fer de treat..hehe..Gonna treat u later..Saw lotsa fwens der..Woohoo~...Who they?!?!...Huda, her sis, Hanafi, Khair, Faiz and Din..Yeah saw othas, bt kinda forget...Erm, wad else Argggh!!...I can't hink...Lastlt but not least, I DONT KNOW!!!

2004-10-19T13:30:00.000+08:00

Okies...A short one..Gonna wish all the Muslims, HAppY fAsTing~...Selamat menjalankan ibadah puase, and thanks fer tagging you guys..keep on tagging...K take care all of you~

2004-10-14T13:07:00.000+08:00

How I wish i'm there fer you now,by your side when u feel sadness and sorrowness..But, i just can't..Feeling down when i saw u in that way...How i wish i could, how i wish i could..I promised you ever before that i will be your sweetest friend, a nice and great friendship bond between us, but i failed..I 'm sorry..I'm so sorry..

I'm alone right now..Don't feel like going out!!...*Ergh*..A bit pissed out when i read something...Oh...Dont ask me who and why okies..OK bah!! I 'm tired and Sick of IT!!...I'm beginning to feel it now..

2004-10-13T19:06:00.000+08:00

In our love story, there may be commas but never a full stop."

A qoute i will never forget...~

2004-10-13T17:00:00.000+08:00

HELO U GUYS!!!......hehe, gosh, it's been quite long time i didn't write my post...Busy with something and did ma new layout...Not tat nice ar, but gonna improve on it...Let's see...Guys, any comments, tag on ma board ok??...Ok Go!...hehe, erm don't know why i'm cheerful and lively today...Well, ma holidays had started...On Sun, was ma best and great day...The most memorable day i ever had...Well, if i told you what i did on tat day, the list will go on and i won't stop...haha, so, if you happen to read this post...Aww tank yous fer making ma day so COOL~~....hehehe..Reached home ard 11pm, then somehow, someone is below ma house...haha, tat's a surprise...Nice snacks u gave me..I'm gonna be fat ar...No regrets ar...hehe...Mon, went to watch movie wit Wan, Nisa and Idris...Movie=="Exorcist"...Damn, so scary ar...The twins forgot to bring jackets ar, so we took our big towel to cover us up....hahha...De movie i gave rating 6/10...ok okla...But, seriously, it's scary...ERGH!!...these two days, i just can't sleep coz of this...whenever i wanna close my eyes, i rememberd de scenes...haiya...hahha...Fiza, next time NO scary movied fer YOU!!...hahaha...Ok i'm lame..erm,then after that go and climb...Aww, miss that someone that time...Go climb, man i'm getting worse...haha...then we went to Bubble tea wit de climber fwens, but haiz~...hehe....Raudhah brought cam, so we took sum pics...Reached home nearly 11pm also...Great day after all...Then on Tues, went out wit you fer a while, watched movie==White chicks...Damn funny...haha Rating i gave 9/10...Tat's a cool one...Tank you so much fer tat...And somhow at tat point of time, i felt a bit uneasy...you guys shud noe..hehe, but it was fun...Reached home ard 10pm...Then today, won't go out till night, cuz they gave me first warning...Ergh!!....Nvermind tomorrow till be a nice day cuz i gonna go out wit....Yaty and Lydia~~~....Finally!!!MAn...Can't wait fer tat.Guess wad..You called me..it's been a long time u called me Yaty...Aww..Miss you lots and lots...Nice conversation we had there...We will have more during our outing alrite...Yeah, And finally, i 've got Firdaus MSN...haha...FEr three years...Hey nothing okiexz...He's a friend of mine...haha..alrite guess i write lots...OK BAH!....

P/s: Enjoy your holidays!!!

2004-10-09T18:15:00.000+08:00

Hie..Well, now, i'm sitting in front of ma com, and don't know what to do..Boring!!...woke up ard 11am,ma parents off to work... then on ma com, then, went to bathe, then eat...then, Nisa went out, then left me , Fida and Yazid...Then Yazid did his project wiht his chinese fwen...Talked to them fer a while, then i slept..Woke up, saw Fiza sleeping...Yazid disappeared already...Then went out fer a while, meet Wan, he wanna gave the baby-blue book..Nice poems u did fer me, thank you so much..Then tot of going out with A...plan already...Then something crops out...Haiya, a bit sad ar, but nvm...then, went home..then ,now, in front of ma com again..writing a post, now chatting with Wan fer a while..then, now alone already..later, gonna eat wit ma family later..YEAH!...then, try to see which layout i wanna put..Oh yeah, sorry bout yesterday, to Naseer...haha, u pshyco me..haha,but i managed to let it down..Fer the FIRST time!!....yeah, quite reget didn't follow you and Ahmad ar..I wanna watched the match ar yesterdy, but donno why i'm damn lazy!!!...Argh, and today, got match between England and Wales..Hope England win ar..-Pray hard-...alrite that's all..OK BAH!!

P/s: Looking forward fer tommorrow, Monday and Wednesday, and YOU!!!

2004-10-08T20:45:00.000+08:00

Hie~..Some things i wanna let out to You, ma diary:

I 'm done wit ma papers...Woohoo~, Finally!!...Relieved..Waiting fer ma Suppapers..Man, i think i'm waiting fer ma Java and ma Router&Swithing suppaers ar...But, still got hope...Argh!...Hope no suppapers -praying hard-

I'm gonna spend ma holidaes working....tot of working in de office..I lurrve tat, but, two months only..like they want like tat, so gonna work factory...tat's de easiest job i can get and it's worht it..Somemore, got experience...cheh2 fiza..haha, like real only...yeah, maybe de shift i'm taking will be 7 to 3pm..then afta 3pm, have to find and buy food fer ma siblings to break fast..gonna be tired, but it's alirite..I like~...hahha..

Ma life, haiz, haiz, haiz~...i'm fine..

Gonna change ma layout really soon..

Ok tat's about all..K BAH!

2004-10-05T10:38:00.000+08:00

Hie...i'm all alone in library level 2..After this post, gonna study back..How's ma Mobile Comp paper??..Yeah, cool~...haha, oklar, but scared ar ma project..ma group coudn't manage to finish up...it's like 3/4...I don't know~...i really hope i passed this..yeah, tomm paper is ma Router & Switching paper..To kak liz(haha) and Liyana, man tangs fer all the notes and tips...I really need it ar...Hmmm, wad else, yesterday went back home wit Rino *sob sob*, it''s been a long time we ever went home together...and i missed those times ar, wit Naseer and Hairil...i really had a nice chat wit you, my fwen...And i'm gonna FIND tat gerl!!....haha...Erm, wad else, then went to see Wan..I wanna let out something...I miss YATY and LYD so so so so much!!...Yeah , yaty and me still in bad terms..u guys wish me de best ar..Frendship between us, it was like, the best thingy happened in ma life..We thought the same, we reacted the same, yeah, almost all the same...I just miss those times..I knew you were thinking i'm talking bullshit rite...But, it's up to you la...Yeah, missed ma TP fwens!!...damn, had to spend more time wit them...and yeah, i miss you too!!(hehe)Oh ya, yesterday, i kena kacau wit Sham, Rino and Wak...haha, they surround me like want to do something to me...haha.But i acted cool only ar...hehe, then Man and Wak went to hide ma slippers and ma bag...Wad de hell!!~...I was like running to catch that Salman, then got one guy ar helped me...Don't know you, but aniway, thanks ar...haha...De funnny thingy is, ma belongings were just near me and can be easily seen...haha, yeah, yeah me POTEK!!...i noe...haha...aniway, one of the best day yesterday...don't know why, but i just feel it...~...yeah, i'm fasting today...A bit weak...Arrrgggh!!...Hope i can tahan ar...ok wanna go and study wit ma fwens...Oh before i forgot, i wanna wish Din, Happy birthday!!!!!!!!!!...Yeah, won't forget ur berthdae...U've been a great fwen to me all this while, wanna say thanks a lot...Wish you all de best!!...Won't forget this friendship of ours...HAppY biRthDay Din~....ok tat's all, k BAH!

2004-10-03T20:35:00.000+08:00

Hie..well, today...achievement ar..didn't go out today!!...haha, erm i mean i went out fer a while, bought pencil, met Wan fer a while to pass BABY-BLUE book!!..Haha, man, de book damn nice...gonna write later..hehe..then bings wit ma adik ar..Wahlau, she ar wanna slap her ar just now..sh'es lucky ma mum just reachd home ar..though, i started to shout at her..Violent right??...haha, nolar, she yet to kena from me ar..haha..bings wit her!!!...Arrrggghhh!!!...Ma life, i really don't know..i made a wish..hope ma wish came true..Haiz~...my lovelife, it's really nice knowing you guys..but, to...it's really damn hard..You noe, i guess i had to just let go these two angels..they were so good to me..haiz~...i'm so lucky to noe them..i'm just a bad gerl...haiz~...really, i just don't know wad to do..Can someone help me!!!!....oh puuueueezzz...oh ya, to you, i wanna say thangs fer de advices...you know, it really worked..heahea...saw Hazim, haziq and one of elfy's fwen..kinda foget his name..Yeah, and i knew what they were thinking at tat time..haha~..i guess tat's all...Gonna study..k BAH!

P/s: U expecting things that did not happened before...haiz~..

2004-10-01T10:47:00.000+08:00

Wanna post fer 2 guys:

To A,
I'm sorry fer not telling you the truth...i don't wanna tell you ferst coz, i knew it's gonna hurt you..So, i told maself, i'm gonna tell you when i'm ready and you're ready to listen to all these...I'm so sorry..guess wad, i cried again..after listening to your song..It seems, crying is de normal thingy fer me now..We take it step by step alright...Ferstly, we will become fwens, and maybe more later..which invoves love..I just don't wanna hurt again...i know u undastand me right?..I just can't afford to..and i promised you, i won't leave you NOW...Tangs fer making me happy, entertain me wit your jokes..I enjoyed maself whenever i'm wit you...And i appreciate it so much..

To B,
To ronaldo, maybe, i'm not the girl you looking fer, and u still can't figure out why u shud choose me as your gf one day..IT's alright...i accept tat..You told me, you'll never look fer me if i were to be with A...It's impossible to be together in future...u said,maybe, we will, which i knew you just don't wanna let me feel the hurt too much..i fully understand what you mean...de words u said, just hurt me lots, u'll never imagined...when we apart yesterday, i don't cry which i usually did ..it's like, i'm used to it...i knew this thingy happen again..wanna say thanks fer everything...I forgive you..though i have lots of things to tell you, but it seems speechless...Friends forever...~

"It's worth it to have one bird in our hand, rather than having birds in the garden"
I fully understand this, and i'm beginning to realise it...

P's: To anyone who post bad things in ma tagbord..i noe who you are L...I just kept one close eye..don't wanna have fight wit you guys...you guys can tag aniting you want..thank you..

2004-09-28T10:48:00.000+08:00

A very good mornin to everyone..Alone right now..Was supposed to go to accompany ma fwen to buy jacket..but, don't know how come, cancelled...it's alright..Later go and study..And yah let's recap bout yesterday....A lotsa things happened to me..Went fer jogging yesterday in school wit Wan, then ran fer 2 rounds, suddenly i had a stomachache, then suddenly got cramp...Yargh, felt like fainting at tat time..And i was like helpless sia...So ran out of the toilet, then screamed fer Clark Kent...haha..Yeah, and there he was...wahlau, he kept asking me lotsa questions...Felt like telling him to shut up, but i was like weak and, i was really in pain...Yargghh!!..Only God knows how it felt...Yeah , u wet the towel and put it on ma face...It really worked..Cooled me a bit,REALLY...Yeah, and wanna say thank you fer being there at tat time..If not, i really, really cant make it..;>..And someone warned me not to run or jog again...Heahea....Nice~...i like...hmm, then at night while i was going home..went to Small Mac at Tamp fer a while..suddenly saw this one guy, like a mid 20...Like serani a bit...Saw him walked past the Small Mac, and somehow, we looked at each otha la..Then suddenly, he came to de Mac, then asked me.."you still schooling or working?", then he offered me a job..Some housing agents la..Damn scary...Asked where do i live..ma number..man, then saw this makcik..she told me tat this guy a bit siao,pagal...man, i just can't belive i talked to a stranger, a siao guy...MAN!!...Scary sia...haha, it's just ma worst day afta all..haiz~...and now, a bit bengal..kla, better stop..Oh yah, Just a bit PENG wit ma tagboard...Plz, write ur name which i can recognise who you are..I really appreciate it..Thank you!!..K BAH!

2004-09-26T19:09:00.000+08:00

Wahlau!!~...I hate ma pakciks like hell sia...Come here to complain to ma parents ar..So wad if he saw me and a guy or ma sis's...As if i did something wrong sia...and if i did, u guys have no rights to interfere in ma life!!...Even ma parents didn't ask me, why you guys so ASS!!!....Argh!!!....I hate you guys ar!!..Yeah and i knew u guys just jealous tat ma dad gonna go overseas coz he would be going trainings under his company...Yeah and you guys act well, as if you are supporting him...You guys are just SUCKS, PAIN IN MA ASS!!!...Well, i missed ma Martin...HE's so cute!!~...Yeah, and he got a tooth...Hehe~...Nice, Wad some more, oh yeah, You, i'm so sorry, i didn't mean tat....Yeah, and you are not a bad person alright..You are one nice guy tat i've ever met...So, don't think tat you had a bad impression alright....And be usual you ok...Please~...Oh Pluuuueeezzz~...haha, alrite miss someone already *winks winks*...I just HATE them!!!....

2004-09-25T17:13:00.000+08:00

Hie, erm me at home...finally, at home...Damn tired, worn out these few days...Don't feel like going out..went to eat with Wan at Tampines ard 12pm just now..Yeah, and went straight home...Wanna buy Puma slipper..Very rare to see Puma slipper ar...And de design okla, nice...Yarrrgghh, gonna buy...hehe...Yeah, wish you good luck fer your match later on..Do your best alright..Now, surfing nets and listening to "I Don't Wanna Know", just listen to ma old songs..Hmm, well, let's talk yesterday..It's been a long time that i wore ma long sleeve shirt..Haha, was supposed to wear Baju Kurung, but Nisa la, don't want..haiya..Then ended up Wan wore one whole suit some more...haha..kla,u look great wearing tat, GorGeous..hehe..Yeah and i'm done wit ma 7 projects....YEAH!!..eh it's a big deal fer me k...yeah and gonna study fer ma three papers later..hope i manage to pass all..haiz~...Yeah, yesterday went to Reservoir wit A, and yeah, knew u more more more more more better...Seriously, this is wad i felt...At ferst when u said tat right, it's like, okla, normal...but when i think back, wahlau, quite *****.....hahaha...okok, have to be extra careful...nah..just kidd..It's perfect and alright fer me...haha...had a great day yesterday....and wanna tell you guys , i enjoyed single and every moment each day...Ok BAH!

P/s : I really, badly miss someone...Guess who...U won't find the answer...haha

2004-09-23T17:00:00.000+08:00

Hie, kinda rush, but well wanna post something ferst..well, alot actually wanna say out, but it just disappear rite now...just post wad i remember la k..aniway, not in a good mood while climbing yest...just hate some of the attitudes...and, yeah Naseer had a motorbike..yeah!!!...better offer me fer a ride to go to school...haha..nah, kidd...scary ar your motobike seems to be so tall...Yeah and Reefqi too...got a car already...Nice~...haha, erm, then me, nisa and Idris, went to bubble tea at 9pm...we ended our training eraly ar...then saw ma old TP fwens...damn, i missed you guys alot...There were Izad, Naseer, Aisyah(Naseer's sis), Yan, Khaleef, Ahmad, Reefqi and Khairil...Cool~ but, Nad was not there...haiya...so yeah, we kept kacau Hairil ar...he got lots of things in him tat we love to tease...haha...Yeah, and de real joker, saper lagi the Yan..haha...man, miss you guys really lots ar...haiz~...Remember the old times we've been so close...yeah, see u guys on the next outing..Wad else...Oh ya...just finished ma presentation...okla, don't feel excited doin the talking...hmmm, oh yeah..the chinese guys in ma class....haha..Wad de hell...All were like saying,"eh i wanna sit beside fiza", "fiza, if u are cold, then tell me ok?" ,"If u are tired, just put your hand on ma shoulder..", "fiza, if your bag is heavy, i carry fer you"...haha....Wad de hell!!....yeah, i noe they are joking la...haha, but so funny ar...they treat me like their little princess ar...haha...oklah, tink tat's all..i'm happy....yeah...wanna do ma project...k bah!

Tat's de onlt things i can recall..Shitz!

2004-09-20T09:22:00.000+08:00

Ma past story:

Meeting you fer the ferst time,

never did i expect to be more than friends,

My feelings fer you were no special,

not interested and impossible fer us to be lovers.

But, somehow de way u treated me,

the way u showed your care and effort towards me,

I started to see the different me.

Maybe it was a crush,

told myself,

No, we are just friends.

Every moment,

Let it be dawn,

Let it be midinght,

we tried to find time to see each other.

Yeah, and day by day,

my feelings started to pour fer you,

but still,

I told myself,

and he told himself,

No, we are just friends.

We tend to hurt each other oftenly,

However, that is not a thingy to prevent us from expressing

We tried to forget de past and moved on

And days passed by again,

we were so close together,

and i concluded,

Finally, made a confession,

But you told me,

we could only be pals, not more than that

So again,

I told myself,

and he reminded himself,

No we are just friends.

We changed our lives,

not to meet everyday

Accept the fact that he's not fer me,

But, each time we tried to run and hide,

we kept missing each other,

Yeah and that's where

I told myself,

and he told himself,

No we are just friends.

Somehow we made excuses just to

cool our feelings down,

and this time,

we reminded each other,

that we should only be pals.

But yet,

once again,

he made me felt comfortable and once be loved

like before,

Decided not to tell my true intention,

that i wanna be with him and no one else,

fear he might just went away far from my life.

One day, you felt that this had to be stopped.

So, you told me again,

We can only be bestfriends,

not more that that

Yeah i lost hope, and accept the fact again.

This time will be the last time,

Made promises,

hurts me,

but i agreed

Better fer us,

We told ouselves,

No, we are just freinds.

The days became memories,

Let that be,

Hope we can move on,

and be the usual us.

Keep reminding,

NO, we are just friends....

Yarrggghh!!!....Damn, so long...haha...i bet no one will read this...nvm, actually wrote long time ago, but lazy to post.,,haeaha....alrite, tat's all...sorry fer writing lots of posts today...k BAH! (*continue doing her project*)

2004-09-20T09:02:00.000+08:00

Nice poem, ma fwen and i would like to share tis poem to everyone...yeah, and i have a poem fer you...not good in it, but i try la k....haha

To a special friend

who captured my heart

just when i lost everything

and was about to fall apart

Everytime a problem comes along,

it seems your always there.

I never would have made it,

without the friendship we share.

You cannot replace my grandpa to him,

that wouldnt be fair

but you will always have a place in my heart,

and someone who cares.

I miss you so much

more and more everyday

we dont even talk anymore

since this job took you away

But i will hold onto the friendship that we have

because you are a special friend,

and i love you like my grandpa

I found you as a gift

sent by heaven above.

A special person filled

with care and lots of love.

You're God's instrument to me,

you're always there to make me happy,

you lend your hands when I was down,

You never let me frown.

The simple joys you've shared

enlightened my heart,

Your understanding mean so much when I was hurt.

I'm so grateful enough that i found someone like you.

A friend so dear to me and that is YOU,fiza!

2004-09-17T08:59:00.000+08:00

Hi, i'm at home rite now...arrgggh!!...i'm slacking more...haiya~..don't feel like going fer ma classes..will be going fer de lab...so now, sittinng on de com, listening to few songs, damn loud, as if i own this whole block...haha..oohh!!...shuddup fiza!!...u shudn't be laughing!!, well, it's a nightmare yesterday...i had a fight comp...wit??.....hmm, don't wanna tell ar...who won?....hmm, it's a draw...haha...it's just tat this thingy happened to me twice...i don't noe wad's ur intention doing this...you won't gain aniting, instead u lost more alrite...Don't always find fault if i'm not wrong....sit and tink bout ur faults too...fer goodness sake, u are not an angel alrite!!...u kept repeating de same words tat u don't think twice...Let me tell u, dat's not de way to talk to teenagers...see, tat's wad happen if u didn't attend some talks regarding "handling teens"last time...wad de hell!!!.....go to them la, go!!....they are better rite...tat's wad u want rite....just go ahead alright...ok, dun mind...i'm just damn pissed off!!...u guys just don't know, how horribble de fight were yesterday...don wanna think bout this...just forget it, k fiza....i don't wanna get stressed up...wanna do ma projects and study fer ma exams...tat's it!!....wanna say sorry to someone, somehow, u were a bit involved in tis matter...dun worry, tat's a lot more to know me...haha...erm aniway, i'm fine, i'm alrite...i'm doing great always...just wanna say to ma twin sis, i love u always, u are ma only number ONE....u are de only one tat i'm sure u'll be there fer me all de times and forever...we will go thru hard and easy times togetha...u are de best!!*sob sob*....yeah and ma otha siblings...i love u too guys....Muaachz!!..wanna say tangs to u too, fer making me feel betta..tangs everyone...HAHA.....ok BAH!

2004-09-16T11:58:00.000+08:00

Hi~...how's ma day??....well, unpredictable sometimes...oklah, tell u guys wad happened to me...yesterday, went to sch ard 9am, wit Wan, then went fer ma classes till 1pm...met ma fwens, somehow, did ma tcs project...then, ard 330pm, went to design, ate wit Sham and Khai..and Joop came later...ard 430pm, went fer ma French class..was supposed ma class start at 4 but, hu cares, damn BORING!!...yeah, and i like, just can't concentrate during tat time, coz, i kept tinking, how's ma project progress??de teacher asked me questions and i can't aswer back..felt like a fool!!..damn, i donno why ma other fwens and ma sis were about to finish their projects and left wit Tcs only...but ME!!!....Sux!!!.....just hate de times when it comes to deadlines...haiya~...then went fer ma Mobile Comp lab, did bit of ma project..ard 7pm, went ma way to rock gym...yeah tot of climbing, but i dun feel like climbing...lots of ma projects , yet wanna went fer ma CCA, it's like i felt so wrong....so, went near ma block study, fer a while, then went to meet Wan, ard 915pm, then we made our way, to Hougang Mall, ate ice-kachang...man, it's beeen long i ate all those flavours...Nice~...then made our way to Punggol river...very sunyi, calm...yeah nice~..and tat's wer i knew u more...since last time wanna asked u but, fear u might think back bout ur past, and so there, u let out almost everthing to me...and it' snice listening to ur stories....and somehow, u told me sth...yeah, and i agreed...felt like crying...tears dropped but, i'm used to cry, used to feel de hurt and pain...i'm used to it...so, tis time, i tink we meant wad we said...and yeah, i felt a bit relieved...dunno why...it's just tat, nvm post later la ..u gave me 10 dollars...at ferst, reluctant to take ur money, but, i took it...not becoz of i want de money...i will keep it...ur money and ur photo is only i have as memories...1130pm ,reached home again!!...i've been coming home late nowadays...Stop it FIZA!!...alright peace..k bah!

2004-09-14T10:46:00.000+08:00

Hi, k gt de mood to post...(take a deep breathe)

Saturday, 11.09.2004

yeah, in da morning, went to Hougang Green, met Farhan to get de free card, then, proceeded to Hougang NEL..Liz, Raudhah and Azmi were waiting fer me...haha...but, i'm early ok..u guys ar too excited wanna go der rite??...haha...k,then met de rest at Mac, Hourbour Front, ate Hash Brown, then went straight at Pahlawan Beach...hmm, who's der??...almost were der, except ma twin sis..Maybe u guys are wondering why she can't make it??...she got QUIZ on tat day...So don't ask me animore alrite...haha...just attempt 3 or 4 routes, then i swam....haha...wit Lizda and Nad..then, some joined too...hmm, de beach der wow, nice and clean ar...i just got a white shirt and pants fer climbing, but who cares?!....the beach called me!!..haha...okiez, gotta meet some new fwens in Tp, make fwens...and yeah, i met ma old fwens der!!!!!!!.........Gosh, there's a lot to mention...man, Yun, Shaari, Shah, Addi, Suhaimi, Razin, Taufik, Web and fwens, man, i forgot who else ...seriously, it's lots ar..haha..oh yeah, and i saw u Lyd....man, tat's de only ferst time i feel like hugging someone, coz i really miss her...Damn, miss u lots Lyd...yeah, how i wish u wer der too Yaty...but if Yaty were der ar...i kena stick wit her always always..haha...tat's her..haiya~...hmm, then, got 4 guys wanna get to noe me...but, kinda not interested...haha...it's real alrite..enuff knowing guys!!...haha..at nite, listened to jiwang songs, purposely brought tat cd..sit down, looked at the beach...wish i were alone der...but got lots of distractions...nvm ..then went home wit Saad, Joop, Nyssa, Dale, Xin xiu and donno tat gerls name...haha...dunnoe correct or not i spell their names...then saw Suhail...then he said ma ex were ard der, tot of meeting him fer while, but haiya no need la..send regards only..and you Suhail, u look gorgeous always..keep up wit tat alrite..then, we ate at Hawker center, then all went home..left ma and Xinxiu alone...nice chatting wit ya..suddenly, i felt de journey is damn short...then, met Wan fer a while...reached home ard 1130pm...wanna tell u guys, i did enjoy de day..

Sunday, 12.09.2004

Kinda morning, went to Bedok CC, yeah went and watch Rino silat...i went wit ma bro, Yazid and Hisham..den der met Hairil and Shaffeeq...hmm, Rino did well despite of his leg...yeah though he's lost, he did his best...la, rino, kalo ur opponent tak jatuhkan, confirm u win alweady...yeah, it's a nice feeling supporting your own fwen...haha..hmm, as usual saw some of ma idol silats played their match...they were totally awesome..haha...hmm, then after de prize presentation, went back home..reached home till 930pm..hope rino's leg doing fine...

k tat's basically all spending ma wekends...it was great...Miss ma old fwens and love ma siblings...Muacchz!!!....And miss you too...haha..alright tat's all dudes and babes!!...ok BAH!!

2004-09-13T17:37:00.000+08:00

Damn lazy to write post ar, so, later gonna update...if i'm not lazy, then i write a long one...de most impt one, i wanna wish happy belated birthday to Hazirah and Rino!!....man i miss u gerl~...and to Rino, ma good fwen, be crazy always, and rawkz!!...wish u all de best!!...oklah tat's all..wanna do ma project alweady~...miss someone..*winkz*

2004-09-10T13:33:00.000+08:00

ok hie...force maself to blog...hehe...now, i'm at lvl 3, alone..yeah good~chatting wit sham just now, and now, wit Rino and Ahmad..yeah finally, chatting...hehe...and now, just cabut wit ma malay classmates just now....put our bags, then went to Short Circuit...lepak2 der fer two hours...then went lab took our bags and, "yeah de lab's ended"...haha...and de quiz, alrite, i can do!!..hehe..and yeah chatting wit Yaty...i kena bombak a lot..yeah say things u wanna say to me..i noe u got lots of tings to say rite...yeah u said i just ignore u guys.....no , i'm not..put ur photos everyday in ma bag...always see u guys picz, it's just tat i'm bz wit ma skool, projects and ccas and othaz......tot u two shud noe me better but how wrong i am...yeah, and aniway sorry, i'm in wrong too...haiz~...nvm...i'm cool wit it...yeah back on last Tues, went to beach..wit u..and yeah i enjoyed it so much...esp. we wrote sth on de sand rite??...haha..yeah, and accidentally saw Suhail's parents...haha...okla...actually wanna post one more..but no mood and no time..gotta go fer ma french class....ok BAH!

tanx fer de massage ma fwen..

2004-09-05T17:46:00.000+08:00

Hi..yeah, damn boring...so decided to write a post...hmm, dunno wad to write ar...oooh ya before i forgot...wanna wish Joop happy belated berthday...hehe...kinda late sorry...and enjoy ur holiday, and dun worry, i'll tk care...hehe...and now, really missing someone...just hope he's doing fine always...yeah better fer us...hope i'll never cya again...yeah rily hope so...haiya...kla tat's all..wanna tok wit sumone...k bah...

2004-09-04T13:39:00.000+08:00

Hie...i'm at lvl 4...just now went fer ma Java quiz then, ate wit you then went school again..wanna update ma blog, do some stuffs then do ma project...then go home, then wanna study...i'm slacko alweady...damn slack...and ma projects like SUCKS!!...yeah i noe u always pray fer tat rite...yeah your wish had cum true...and now, i'm dissapointed in maself...really....really disappointed...and i felt i'm damn bad...and yah, i felt i'm like a bitch, a player!!...yeah, wadeva!!...i have ma own reasons and u guys need not care!!...and i guess, ma mind's clearer rite now..have better thoughts..but, hope tat tis never change...yeah, and now not using ma now...maybe on mon, i will be using new plan and ma new line...wanna change ma number also la...better...somehow, i'm missing ma factory fwens...esp. Song Bo, and Se Yan, Ah Kwang...and aunties and uncles...yeah saw tis one China man, then tot of Song Bo...haha...Wo de Lau Gong..yeah, really miss those times..and he's now back in China...hope de best fer you..he's damn hansome ar...caught him in ma eye...haha...yeah he's old la...28 some more...i noe u always remember me and ma sis rite...i bet others too....coz we are de notorious and "BREAK DE RULES" in de factory...haha...oklah...wanna do some other things...and to Grayman...yeah, u said tat, and i agreed...it's better fer us...i'm sorry if i actually hurt you and made u feel sad always....i had forgiven you...Tat's all...PEACE..

2004-09-02T13:40:00.000+08:00

Hie...i'm at lvl 4...just finished studying alone...haha..half an hour only..then now check ma blog, ma frenster ma hotmail...down wit lots of projects..yeah yesterday, ma tcs project...Damn, de slides are horribble...de words can't be seen due to the background color...but, still can make it la fer me..just hancai bocai talk only...used to all dese things ar...haiz~...tomm is ma french prsentation...wish me luck guys...haha..hmm, yeah, wad else wanna write ar...donno alweady la...very lazy already...wanna start revising...i'm behind track one...okla...tat's all...BAH!

those days, i'm very happy..

2004-08-31T16:00:00.000+08:00

Apel Assignment DONE

Telesys Project

RoSW Project

Java Project

French Project DONE

MobComp Project

TCS Project DONE

p/s: YaRgHH

2004-08-31T12:34:00.000+08:00

Hie..k lots of things really happened to me...Sat, went out with a fwen...great!..splendid nice!!....well, it was cool...haha...well, met him, ate at Bedok, then made our way and played pool...yeah yeah, you won...but, it's just your LUCK!!..haha...then, we went to Orchard donno wad place, went and watched AVP...oklah...de story nice la but not expected one la..yeah, it's quite a long time never watched movie...de last one is Spiderman2..haha.okok...before tat, we walk2 ard the mall...yeah quite big ar the place..hmm, then ard 915pm, went to Town fer a while, went to buy some food at 7-11...yeah and saw one of ma ex, Khairul..don like his face..so KEREK!!....fer goodness sake, i didn't do aniting wrong....coincidence.. just contacted me last week, and we TERmeet..yeah he's de same old him...still da havoc type...ok, then we went home..yeah took bus, very de lambat..yeah on da way home..u made a flower...not an ordinary flower.."just for YOU"....well, tat's so sweet...never will i forget tat..hehe..den, reached home ard 1130pm...yeah, damn late...my luck tak kene marah...haha...ok then on Sunday, me became kendarat..wit ma sisters and one maid gerl..wah it's been long i worked as tat job...haha..yeah VERY VERY tired...ma legs like wanna putus alweady...haha...the couples eh, ok-oklah...but their costumes VERY nice...de color also nice..yeah, finally met ma long-lost cousins...haha...yeah, chat wit them, esp wit cute Hawa...laser eh mulut...haha...basically tat's all la..then yesterday, finished ma skool, went to watch "A Walk to Remember" wit Hisham, Khai and Joop...haha..donno how many times i watched already...hehe...then went fer climbing..and i cut ma palm this time...haiya...donno why i just kept quiet yesterday..like no mood to talk...maybe, i'm stressed wit ma projects and wit ma life...and now, one has gone...left wit two...and these two, i think i made ma decision...but still, it's too early fer me to say aniting...let's see....

2004-08-30T10:08:00.000+08:00

Actually got a lots of things to post..but dun have time la...so post tis....fer you...yeah, maybe i'm moving on...not maybe, i'm moving on...but i can't imagine or accept tat u too tried to moving on too...fer goodness sake, i knew i'm selfish...i don't think wad i did to you...i'm so sorry...but, can someone tell me wad's this feeling i felt...maybe, we tend to hurt each other alwaes...really...and maybe, we shud remain in this way so tat we will not hurt each other again and be as last time...u noe, u always be there fer me...and i always be there fer you... support everything decisions we do and make..i just hope, things can turn back time, but we can't....so u and me, dearest and sweetest fwen always...i think i too hurt your feelings sometimes and felt disappointed in me...so latly, i'm asking fer forgiveness...You, i'm so sorry...REally sorry fer wad i've done...

Talking bullshitz again...and to everybody!!!......i'm NOT CONFUSED!!!

2004-08-27T18:56:00.000+08:00

hmm...sat relax-relax in de cable tv since just now..yeah did ma project..da semangat-mangat, den, no one has a photocopy card..wahlau!!...dunno la how..aniway, tell u de truth, i'm happy fer someone...donno why...sumtimes, wonder who's she...but nvm...happy always~~yeah eventhough i looked cheerful today or wad...no one noes wad rily happened in ma life...and now, haiz~...i dunno...i'm rily sick today..but okla, can manage it..tangs fer the 3 tissues...i need one only la..haiya..some moved on and and some holding on...let's just see who can hold on de most...

2004-08-27T09:56:00.000+08:00

hi...well, last night, chat with ma fwen...damn, great time...we talked loads and loads...and got one time, i'm half-sleepy, then i talked rubbish man...haha...damn, so STUPID!!!......haha....and yeah u too...."U better make sure ar"....haha...wad de hell you...yeah, and we slept ard 530am..whoa....and now, i'm sleepy..in da morning, woke up late, then ma dad asked me to dry de clothes ferst before going off...haiya!!!...then, met Wan and went to school..didn't go fer ma ROSW tutorial..just having ma breakfast with him...YEah, and one thing, yesterday, i gave de same forwarded messages to ma 'used to be' very closefwens...I wanna say really sorry to u guys...Really, i felt damn bad rite now....it's just tat....nvm la...u guys won't know....but it's ma fault...SORRY, ma fwens....haiz~....yeah wanna say tangs to Pijali fer sending me home yesterday fer de offer..at least i got contact wit one of u guys..and i felt great....hmmm....wanna say tangs alot to Wan...donno why...i think he did make ma day sometimes...Donno la why..hope our fwenship stays forever yeah...oh yeah, de last climbing, we spent in Rock gym...yeah SUCKZ...can't make to de top....Yarrgghhhh!!!!!.......nevermind la...oh yeah waiting fer tommorrow...hope it's a great and fun day...dat's all k BAH!!

###Rajin cepat###
###Errr arr errr arr###
haha...dat's all i can think ar fer now..damn, i think i'm suffering short-term memory...
Yeah, and fer tis sumone, i remember ya.....

2004-08-26T16:05:00.000+08:00

Yargh!!!..........damn boring, really boring...wanna go home but, cannot, at 5, ive meeting...haiz~..went fer the first lecture, teleomm, then me and lizda cabut..haha..then made our way to bb...yeah got lots of magicians there....hehe...then me, rino and sham made our way to CC...yeah they did thier projects, and me, watch Hindustani movie,"HumTum"..means, You and I...hehe...ok tis story is ok okla...but, thier storyline if different from others....tat's nice..and wad makes it nice ma hero is der, Saif Ali Khan...man stay cool always ok...haha...hmm, thne donno wad to do...ma lab has been cancelled fer today...and, i'm srioulsy boring ritenow...yargh!!....ok tat's about all la...ok BAH!

Hum tum dosti...

2004-08-24T17:20:00.000+08:00

juz one thing....follow ur heart listen to it..sure make the rite decision one..

always remember this fiza....Always...k fer someone out der...I miss you so much!!.....haha

2004-08-24T10:56:00.000+08:00

Hie..in da I-Zone again..didn't go fer ma lab...yeah, i'm damn tired...Yarrgghh!!!.......now, still sleepy...donno why...yesterday, i felt damn stressed and unexppected thingSSS came....tot of doing ma projects after ma skool..instead, went to beach, spent ma time der fer a while....then went home, then packed ma tings went to climb....yeah, i'm not jiwang la...but i nedd some fresh air and look at de sea...yeah, i just need dat fer while....so climb, hmm great...tat's de ferst time i guess i learn new and interesting techniques...wow!!....yeah and welcome ma staff in de climbing...yeah, he came back...wad a real coincidence...same cca since last time...we studied in TP, same course some more..and now, back to same cca....haha....GREAT!!........hmm, den wad else, hmm...i donno wad to write some more...oklah dat's all..K BAH!

Damn confused...Can someone help me out??!!

2004-08-23T11:47:00.000+08:00

Man i'm dead bored..having ma LAB..de teacher sucks!!...she's such a bore...quite sleepy, maybe gonna sleep now...Liyana, wahlau u took ma layout sia...haiya..but surprised ar...u see, great minds thinks alike, u noe...haha..*winks*...kla..Chiaoz manoz~*snore* *snore*

2004-08-23T09:12:00.000+08:00

Hie...i'm in da I-Zone..yeah wit two others, donno who...decided to write a post before going fer ma lecture...yeah, let's start on Sat..morning itself, i didn't sleep...Wad de hell...haha...i'm crazy...then, went to skool....saw Nisa, Rino, Sham and Salman...then, nisa's gone, we made our way ate at Al-Kadir der...then we went back home..Gosh!!....Damn boring...really man...tot of going out alone ar....but, VERY SLEEPY!!!.......haha...Then yesterday which is Sunday...ate wit ma family in da morning...den saw ma cousin, Taufik...then, we tot of going to Arab Street but, something happen la..so, we went straight home..then, chat wit YOU again...wahlau...i tell you ar, we are crazy pple..Sleepy also dun wanna say sleepy...u still don wanna give up...haha..i can win you la...ma handphone DOING alweady...i just can't receive sms from ma fwen....Fed up...yargh!!...then, ard 5, met Wan accompany him to but some shirts at Compass Point..then went back home ard 730pm...hmm, then ate wit ma family again..after dat, watched Kal Ho Naho...hahaha....yeah, and i tell u i cried a lot man....Really a lot...i guess de Disc four is the most touching and rily sad one ar li...haha....bet you also cry ar...then chat wit Nur(haha) and sms wit you...then damn sleepy already...so stopped smsing wit ya...but, nur, u are so hyperactive one ar...haha....can't sleep...you are damn Joker....like to gossip ar you...can be like plastic gerls...haha....and we slept ard 530am....wad de hell...then in da morning, waken up by Wan, go to skool wit him, and as usual, i'm late...Really sorry ar ...haha....now, okla wanna go fer ma lect...Gonna be start revising also ar starting tis week...i think i flopped alot alweady.....Yeah and fer ma lovelife...erm, i guess i'm in really confused coz...........haiz~Can't wait to see ma climbing gerls...yeah see you guys later....ok BAH!

2004-08-21T12:35:00.000+08:00

A really nice poem wan..u made a great job...as you said, i won't forget this sweet poems of yours..This is ma promise..

title:i miss u....

Craving to see your smile again
makes me wish
to turn back the time
from which I can get a glance at you
and thinking that someday
you'll really be mine.

How will I ever forget you,
the girl who opened
my heart to love,
who makes me inspired each day
and who gave methe hope and strength
not to be afraid to fall for someone.
And without you knowing,
it was you from the beginning.

Over the past years,
I set my heart to others,
still it can't be open,
it can't be broken.
I thought that the blame was on me
but what can I do?
Not even one got the right key.

Learning to go on
without you in my mind,
is really hard to keep on trying.
For the truth is, in my entire life,
I found out, it's in you my world
keeps on turning.

At the right time,
whenever I get the chance
to express what I feel,
I'll let you read this poem
to let you know
how much I like you
and for every moment
I set my thoughts on you,

I never, ever stopped dreaming
and praying that one day
you'll tell me,
you like me too..

2004-08-21T12:19:00.000+08:00

Hie..i'm in the library...well, just now, went to see Nicholas fer the project...then, now i'm wit Rino and Sham..Yeah, donno wer to go after this..hmmm, no idea ar...Yest, was de TIRING day fer me...and i didn't sleep till 6am like dat..Yeah, we are insanes...Pagal Hai...haha....Really had a nice conversations ar wit you...and of coz, i knew u a lot better....Dat's good ar...Yeah, these few days, i spent ma time happily, and no opportunity fer me to be sad...haha.....Yeah, and wan's match...SUCKS i guess...but, u played rily well..yeah, and ma heart belongs to who?!?!........i'm still figuring out....ok basically dat's about all ar...very sleepy...k BAH!

2004-08-18T15:09:00.000+08:00

Hie...i'm in da library rite now, waiting fer ma cds..Went back home ard 12pm, didn't go fer ma lect at 11am...tot of going to de next lecture, but damn, no mood...Ok, i'm not sad, i'm not in bad mood or wad...But, i i i i...yargh of coz i'm not!!...yeah, i lied...Since i knew, i don't know why i felt damn jealous...U guys need not know bout tis...it's not dat important..No i'm not...yeah i am...haiz~....So wad if i'm jealous or kinda in bad mood...SO WAD?!?!....I shudn't behave in this way right...yeah, nvm...it takes time....and now?!?!.....I don't know....i REALLY don't know...haiz~.....Wanna say tat i'm wanna apologise to some of ma friends...really, i knew i'm missing in action...Really sorry....Today, tis morning, went to skool wit Adam...man, it's been long since saw tis childhood fren of mine bt yeah we still keep in contact...tat's de best ar...haha...then bumped wit Izwan...nisa's skoolmate...then, went fer ma TCS cds..donno why i really liked dis teacher...fer goodness sake he's not handsome la..haha...but i like de style he taught us...not boring at all thou it lasted fer 2 hours..yeah, tat'z great...then went home wit Wan..basically tat's all la...going to climb later at 6...Don't feel like going fer ma CDS later..man...i'm so lazy...i'm not in da mood...yeah bt later i guess i will be in happy mood while i 'm seeing ma friends later...haha...yeah and i cut ma knee...while climbing...but now ok already...oooh yaa...Dreamt about someone again...why ar?!?!....nice dream niwaez....but, is der someting...haha...nah!!!....oklah, dat'z about all...OK BAH!

p/s: Kipas is a helicopter...haha....k u guys don't know...

2004-08-16T15:59:00.000+08:00

Hi...i'm at home...still thinking wanna go fer climbing today or not.....I'm quite weak today...well, it seems i'm energetic when i saw ma frens just now, but when i'm alone...gosh, feeling weak again...Am i sick or not?!?!.....haha...Yesterday slept ard 4am, haha, and yeah,i'm down with flu yesterday..a very bad flu...Gosh it's like all ma tissues just scattered all over ma bed...haha...yeah, and i dreamt...A very good dream...Man, i feel like i'm smiling while dreaming...haha...aniway, i'm watching Nemo...haha...tangs ar...yeah i had not watch dat before...and heard from ma fwens dat de movie was great so, don wanna misst good things,u noe..haha...So, stopped fer the moment...write a post and off to skool..Wanna see match ar...ALONE!!!.....Damn boring, but nvm....hmm, Do i like him or not?!?!....yeah dat question played in ma mind since...hmm since when ar...Dunnoe ar....Try to get rid of all these...Yeah, and once again, i'm not feeling moody or sad or wad...I'm alryte...haha....ma fwenz keep asking me lar...so yeah..i'm fine..Comments bout ma hair from ma fwens:

--So short
--Not much difference
--Look better
--Like secondary school gerl sia
--Okla

haha...not particular in tis ok...yeah and now, off to skool...finally, de dream was great!!...wish dat it happens oftenly...hahaha....ok BAH!

2004-08-15T20:46:00.000+08:00

Background song: Amanda Perez-Angel

It's been five months since you went away
Left without a word and nothing to say
When I was the one who gave you my heart and soul
But it wasn't good enough for you, no
So I asked God God send me an angel
From the heavens above
Send me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
'Cause all I do is cry God send me an angel
To wipe the tears from my eyes
And I know it might sound crazy
But after all that I still love you
You wanna come back in my life
But now there is something I have to do
I have to tell the one that I once adored
That they can't have my love no more
Cause my heart can't take no more lies
And my eyes are all out of cries
God send me an angel From the heavens above
Send me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
'Cause all I do is cry God send me an angel
To wipe the tears from my eyes
Now you had me on my knees
Begging God please to send you back to me
I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep
You made me feel like I could not breathe
Now all I wanted to do was to feel your touch
And give you all my love
But you took my love for granted
Want my lovin' now But you can't have it God
God send me an angel From the heavens above
Send me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
'Cause all I do is cry God send me an angel
To wipe the tears from my eyes
Oh God, send me (God send me an angel)
An angel (wipe the tears from my eyes)
Oh baby
Send me an angel from the heavens above Send me an angel (God send me an angel)
From being in love (send me an angel) Oh God, send me an angel Send me an angel (send me an angel) Ooohhhh..

2004-08-15T16:24:00.000+08:00

Hie...Guess wad?!...I cut ma hair!!!.....haha....YEah very short ar...not nice alweady...haiya...But, nvm la..it's been long time i rily had a short hair...Nisa just trim her hair only...So GUYS, now u can recognise us easily..."oh kakak dier rambut pendek, adik dier rambut panjang"...haha...Dat's wad u guys want rite since last time...so no need to paisey alweady...tried to upload a song and put in ma website..but, it became a disaster...nvm, i need to have a break...Yarggh!!....tommorrow start skooling alweady....have to study again..yeah, have to start revise lar....yeah and wad a good start...will be climbing tommorrow...yeeah!...got fireworks comp at Esplanade but, see la the weather...A good timing to sleep..haha...Lazy ar...Aniway, guys, buck up yeah fer your studies alryte..Focus fiza!!...Focus fiza!!!.....heaheha...hmm, ok wanna have some sleep....Ok BAH!

2004-08-14T21:27:00.000+08:00

Wad i'm doing now?!?!chatting and check ma hotmail, listening to Weezer-Island in the Sun... ate at Arab Cafe with ma family just now..yeah, chat on de phone with Wan fer a while...Tangs fer de advices....Guess i'm not fit to be an 18 year old...I'm still sucks in ma lovelife...and, now, i told myself...who wanna get to know me...just treat them as friends...if i have feelings fer them, i will really take it slow and just be friends ferst coz its fer our own good...Frendship lasts but not relationships.....yeah,...hahaha.......i'm okla...i'm not sad, i'm not bingz...i'm alryte...Aniway, wanna shout-out to Shahneezar!!!!.....Happy birtday Is....Hope u achieved in everything you do...Miss u bro...Miss ma old fwens..Sorry fer not joining you guys...And yeah, had Khaleed's link...Xinghua fwens, if u wanna noe how's his life...u can get it from here...And Yaty gonna made her blog..Wah da kencang korang eh!!...tat's all...ok BAH!!

2004-08-14T18:30:00.000+08:00

Harlo!!...Guess wad didn't go out today..I'm so FLAT!!...haha....today i'm like a lazy pig..woke up nearly 1pm, then i can't bring maself to go to skool...so, i washed maself, did some houseworks, nt some but little..haha...then watched de repeated National Day Parade a bit....then i felt sleepy again...DAMN boring, so sleep again....yeah and now, i just woke up...so decided to write a post...haha...I slept damn late la..Don wanna tell u guys wd time i slept..haha...damn late ar..it's been long time i chat on de phone fer a very long time....but it's nice feeling la chatting with you....ok, now guess wad....i ignored a lot of people....esp. ma close, bestfwens....it'z not dat i ignore la....it's like i wanna be alone, went out with who i want......yeah it's a selfish of me doing that...i donno wad had came into me...still *confused*.....ok BAH!

2004-08-13T12:32:00.000+08:00

Hie i'm in skool...had ma project meeting with Nicholas...He's in Mecha...Ex-bartleyan..2 years loder than me..His fwen used to be ma ex....haha..Wad a very small world...meeting de same old people...So, how's ma day...After did ma research, meet Wan fer a while then wanna go home..Dun wanna stay out...sorry mad, fer cancel de outing..aniway, really in bad mood rite now...called me then scold me...Wad de hell...Go and check who's wrong ferst then scold la...yesterday, let's talk bout it...went home with Rino and Syam...U noe wad...Rino bought me and ma sis hamsters..k they are not fer real...but they were like so cute...they can sing, can box, can taekwando...haha....damn funny...Rily cute...Tangs ma fwen...then went to bubble tea bought drinks, then went home...along ma way home, met Wan fer a minute....haha...tat'z a stupid thing to do....haiya!!...then, walk home...Yeah, think of dis someone on ma way home...Wad de hell...Just made me feel confused again....i hate to be in dis situation...i don't know did he rily likes me or not...is it me or wad?!?!....but, why i must think of him...nah he's really a good boy u noe....whole package...sure i can't have him....bt if i can have him, how's de rest?!?!......ok wad de hell again...yeah slept late again....Okok...i promised la...don't worry...nake sure u had lots of plan dat day.. yeah...ok dat's all...BAH!

2004-08-12T11:11:00.000+08:00

Gd morning guys...hmmm,i'm in skool...Wanna do ma research later on...but, now just surfing some of ma fwen's blog, friendster and chatting...yeah, when i read sum...it makes me thinking...i don't agree on some of ma fwens opinions...maybe i'm not like dat...well, dis is me...So wad if i have lots of guyfwenz....Doesn't mean i have feelings fer them...Some of them are scared to go out with lots of girls or guys coz they know they easily fall fer someone...unlike me...yeah, i used to be liddat last time...bt not now...I know how to differentiate between a friend and sumone i like....HE's nt dat handsome, be it dark or skinny or be stylie or nerdie...if i fall fer a guy,he's de one, he's de one...I will think of him everyday, made him happy...made him smile..willing to do any sacrifices.... he's ma Tom Welling, ma Hitrik Roshan, ma Shane West...and i'll appreciate him always....Dat's when i will do if i'm in a relationship...but fer now, i don't have any...dun wanna be in any relationship, coz i can't think of sumone 100%....not fair fer de person too right?!....Till i really has made a decision...then i will be with him....Yeah, trust and learn to give and take are de most imprtant hing in relationship..yeah, and respect...That matters me too..So, yeah be it yeah..oklah...Dat's all...Hope i made ma decision quickly and dis time, a good decision...haha...i'm talking as if i'm a BIG shot...U think u are who ar fiza??!!....haha..Shuddup ar...ok yest went climbing...oklar...Went back home, sth happen...so, i'm kinda in bad mood....oklah dat'z all..Ok BAH!

2004-08-11T11:13:00.000+08:00

Gd morning...Just woke up and decided to on ma com and chat with ma fwens...yeah,but ma intention is to write a post...I wanna ask u guys a question...If someone dat u had a crush on asked to call ...definitely u feel very happy right...but when u called and suddenly,he wanted to talk to someone else, i mean like, your crush had a second line....and waited fer your crush ard half an hour....Wad de hell!!!........how would you feel...Totally sucked up right?!?!?!....Yeah dat's why i had a second thought.....Nevermind...need not tell u guys de whole version of wad's happening...IT's just dat this thingy will always playing with me fer ma whole lifetime...and i have to get used to it....Seriously, no ONE i can trust right now...NO ONE!!....And, maybe this is the time i have to change maself...A better me....

2004-08-10T22:15:00.000+08:00

Just finished watching ma favourite VCD,-A walk to Remember-,starring Mandy Moore and Shane West(hot guy).....hahaha.....Oh man....He's aWeSomE.....he's so sweet...He's hot...hahaha...Yeah, and i cried again...kla dat's all..Back to chatting....Finally, I love Shane West.......hnaha...Missing ma bartley fwens...Haiz...Hope we can reunite one day yeah...Like going out together..de whole lots of us...hahhaa....ok bah!

2004-08-10T14:35:00.000+08:00

Yargggh!!, finally, i've finished ma layout....Wad color which is mostly flooded ma blog layout??!!!!...It's Baby Blue...okok it's nt baby blue...but it some kinda associate wift blue right??....yeah, can't find de real baby blue la...Aniway, wanna say tangs to Am fer editing ma pics.....nice pics u've edited fer me...i did edit some of ma pics, but i'm not dat pro la....finished dat wift ma signature some more...Be alert, dat is a FAKE signature...I didn't sign dat(hands up)...haha....tangs ar...hmm, wad else??.....Guys if u have any comments do tell me yeah..maybe i can change a bit if i got time lar...ok, let's talk about ME...last two weeks had been a busy weeks fer me...Almost everyday went out...Friday, went eating wift Wan,then made ma way to see dat Ahmad...at town ard5pm...Talked lots and lots...And we did crazy things...haha...It's all with your stupid ideas man...hahhaa....Went to certain shops and tried some really nice clothes...and de clothes looked cooled on us right??!!!...haha....Reached home ard 10pm ...Saturday, went to ma skool fer a while, have ma briefing,went with Din..Shifa, Sam and Rino can't make it...then went back home wift Wan...Sunday,went to Bugis with Wan, then made ma way to Kallang with ma big ,whole family...Ate Kambing Soup...Guess wad,i've been living fer 18 years....This is ma ferst time ate dat food...After much persuasion from ma pakcikz, i ate and yoohhhooo...It's damn nice...I like..haha....Ard 12pm, we went home...On Monday which is yesterday,went out with ma fwens to see the fireworks. at Kallang River...Whoa..Nice fireworks ar...Who were der??......Me, Nisa, Sad, Lyn, Sarah, Li, Rino, Syam, Mi, Fir and his gerl, Xin xiu, Jeep,Khai....and the rest...I forgot alweady la..haha...Shocked i was der rite...Seriously, dat was ma ferst outing with them...Comfortable??...hmm, got still shy shy talking with them....Let some outings with ma other fwens down on dat day...Sorry...me,Nisa,Rino, Syam and Khai met at Hougang then we went der together....Played some games...yeah yeah...I could only think of "he ,she,we"....hahahha....Buntu ar....then,got one guy dunno who came der, then distributing burgers..i mean FREE burgers...hahaa....tangz fer dat...then ard 9pm, gotta from dat jammy place...went to MRT station,it's like jam,lots of people der pushing and rushing their ways...including me la...hhaha...then went to Dhoby Gaut met Wan, then sat ard Hougang fer a while, then went home...To be exact went home ard 1138pm...hahha...and now, i'm rily tired to go out....K, wanna wish all Singaporeans, a Happy Belated 39thNational Day!!!!!!!!!..........and finally, wanna wish ma fwen,Sufyan....Happy birthday Yan..hope u achieved in everything you do.....k dat's all..Enjoy our one weeks holidays guys...and BAH!

2004-08-07T22:39:00.000+08:00

got lot of tings to tell u guys...but later i tell k....change ma layout...Haven't finish yet....continue tommorrow...ok bah!

2004-08-04T19:09:00.000+08:00

hi....guess wad?!!...i'm in library...tot of going home at 630pm....promised maself...but, stuck in MSN....hahhaa...yeah chat wif ma fwens...and i jus realised now...Wad's been happening in ma life...I don't even noe....Haiz~...when i'm just alone, all ma probs are shooting back on ma head!!.....Wanna say tangs to ahmad too.....u helped me alot and give me good pints of view...Guess , i don't know much about guys...I have to know more...tangs to li too....tangs you so much!!......Yargh!!.....Actually lotz of things happened to me lately...but, no need to tell la....i hope i'm doing fine...i just need ma FRIENDS rite now....and i'm doing good...still having ma paper...yargh!!!..k bah!

2004-08-02T18:54:00.000+08:00

I'm sad....damn ass sad....feel like crying again but, i really tried ma best to calm down...lots of people are here....so tahan....in de morning , in de afternoon...yeah, very happy....but when i knew something....oh gosh!!!....i broke down....in de toilet...it's like why this things always happen to me....i shuld tell to someone but who????.......whom can i trust except ma sis???....yeah and i asked ma fwen to accompany me...hell!!!....i cried...but i think it's alright fer u rite??....hard to see me cry u noe....u shud be grateful....hahaha.....yeah tangz....how i feel right now....i just wanna be wit ma sis, Lyd and Yaty...Oh man!!!......but it's not possible rite...so, chillin at lvl 3 right now...i felt like slapping him....violent right???!!!!...but, seriously, i should do dat....yargh!!!....chill fiza, relax fiza...take a deep breathe...Oh man!!!.....i HATE him....LOGOFF!!!

2004-07-31T12:01:00.000+08:00

Gd Morning!!!!........k, i'm in skool right now..wit Nisa and Naseer...wanna change ma blog again la mybe..boring wit ma layout....gonna be studying from afternoon till night...heaehaha(like real)...Yesterday was like a long day to me..donno why...Wanna say tangs to ma fwen A fer the treat...haha....after ma CDS, went study wit ma fwens.....at night, haiz~....had long argument wit ma fwen B.....talked on de phone...yeah, it's like...he's different when i first saw him, and now he's changed...everything changed so fast...Oh man!!.....GUYS are like shitz!!!.....k don't mind again plz.....if you were in ma situtaion, then you will behave in this way too....after one, another one...and this thingy won't stop ...If I told you ma point of view bout guys now....i tell you ar....you guys will be damn shocked....haha...so don't wanna tell you guys...shh shh...cannot tell...haha....ma studies..yeah tried to cover all ma topics as fast as possible...Feel like giving up ma ICA...Yah 3 sems i've been doing Java..and it's getting harder, harder to breathe...heahhea.....hmm rite now....i'm really stuck wit another song...you guys try to check out this song.....maybe u guys have heard dis before...yeah, i'm slow la...haha...then, hmmm wad else ar....oh yar, guess yesterday was ma happiest day.....i achieved something....can't tell you guys also.....niway, it's not a big deal...happy being wit ma fwens...went home with Naseer, Hairil, Rino,Nisa and Ahmad...kept laughing all de way....hehaeha.....kk dat's all..gonna study...To you guys, who read ma blog and to all ma fwens, GD LUCK for your term test aight...k, ChArLo MaNo GO!!....Bah!

Look What You've Done-Jet

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you'
Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Give me back my point of view'
Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

2004-07-29T09:52:00.000+08:00

changed ma song to:
So Much For Happy Ending-Avril Lavigne

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things
I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you ?
All the things you hide from me
All the F*** that you do

You were all the things
I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

It's nice to know you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

oh man, when i read de lyrics, i shudn't put it here...Before i'm having any misunderstanding wit anyone again...this song has no associated wit anyone...i love this song..So be it, yeah...